Religious and spiritual or philisophical Rights

Is it just me or does it seem like psychiatry is an assualt to personality if you're inclined toward finding meaning in life through individualisation, if not atuned to germinating an expanse to my consciousness. Like I did quite a lot of meditation and inner alchemy associated to taoism this provided me with an appreciation of my own consciousness and since my understanding or attempt to communicate a sense of reality to a situation when taling to a psychiatrist...can't quite remember what I wass going to say but that is kinda normal now the drugs have influenced my workking memory.

And yeah Is it just me or do the quacks not actually know much about the medications or mental illness for that matter , in a reality of the matter speaking that they have gone so far in accumulating knowledge about categorisation of abnormal behaviour during naturally occuring organic states, plus a plethoria of studies driven by pharmacuetical money comparing drugs and observing their effects on drug effected people labeled with schizophrenia. [does anyone get it without first having stress cause for a decline in sleeping habits? dunno if thats when the dreaming really sets in. Is it just me or does the idea of interacting with a mythical being or maybe as far as a voice or whisper that srves a purpose so we don't get too far in a sense of isolation or that the creation serves a purpose as is supposed in our reaction to trauma and theory of maladaptive daydreaming and fantasy prone personaltiy. I thought what was Identified as psychosis that personally held quite a spiritualistic meaning and lesson in karmic states and transcending.

Shouldn't the system incorperate more diagnostics to determine which cases do well when treated with minimal antipsychotic use, if only limited to acute phases and importantly getting routine in order and proper sleep. proof isn;t enough in what should be an advancing science in observation of normal recoveries from psychosis that haven't been invaded and acutely disrupted to have any scientific validity to obervations made, since there is no control group and psychiatrist falil to listen and only project an artificial form to gathering information from a client in an unnatural setting and serious insult to integrity for one that was once seeking virtue and meaning in existence in PRIVACY, they fail to recognise true behaviour if one would choose to interact with the outside world, the home is like a womb and even fasting is a sign that perhaps the motivation should be to cleanse..how can a psychiatrist judge if psychosis is often a calling to embark on a journey of discovery and richer appreciation for life and the universe, so that could explain the delusion and true granduer, not like my granduer was trying to talk some sense with a quack that has no natural empathy to the situationm thier minds are caught up in a world of self richeousness and culturally acceptible delusion and grossly assault peole to be more compliant and agreeable, and not speaking of anything that may challenge the cultural norm that one may witness as a sickness and extending to government conspiracy to keep us all subdued. Maybe I've gone too far in the moment to say the conspiracy is to keep visionaries down, but I have no right to say some ppl are on a bad trip its just poorly understood to seem like there would be any help in exerting force and persuading a psychotic to agree to the terms of a civilisation that has standards for behaviour and belief that can lead to oppression. I still think there is a level of oppression in the treatment, and falsifying the rational of someone who doesn't fit the norm or more appear to be of sound mind in accordance with consensus reality or even a world the psychotic wished to escape or transcend. Blaa, bla

I'm starting to use herbal medicines from india, ayurveda to perhaps get to the origin of the condition and mentality of exploring what psychosis really is and perhaps there are subdevisions in triggers even if it is a fantasy world stemming from some kind of trauma.

I used to get high on sleep deprivation but then it snowballs and barriers start forming or something with fear of falling asleep and the anxieties kinda went from there.....Also got a very visual mind so maladaptive daydreaming can strike a big problem and is the source of misdiagnosing hallucination in attempting to depict the landscapes of places and beings I meet on what I depict as the astral dimention or world....some validity in experiences from this time considered psychotic I cherish including expansing in possability of astral interaction with alien beings, locating them in the skiy and learning something...so now I do sound crazy I guess..

would't consider insight to be a valuable thing when in relativity to diagnosis and labeling of behaviour..It induces self doubt many fall prey to if not creating your own reality...trauma of the oppressive process in psychiatric treatment if off the drugs and wanting to get ahead in life and recover if only in the social fabric with family influencial figures ongoing stigma and self limitation from influence...yeah that gets labeled a persecutory delusion if one is a professional in matters of the mind and their supreme knowledge of mental illness and blind administering of medication without being receptive to manifestations of consciouusness. An image represented by the symptoms themselves and indicative of abnormal dopamine levels, it seems so obvious.

ha u'd provbably guess why I inflate myself and give self injury with granduerism when talking to psychiatrist, not that they make a good conversation for philosophy of consciousness and implications to spirituality and even mental illness of the consesus reality, when the apparent psychotic is repflecting on contrasts in good vs evil and noticing the serious flaw in the psuedo-science that psychiatry and the thier borrowed information from the drug industry's monopoly in inforcing clinical guidlines and an artificial sense of True Ethics, they know very little of ethic when treating humainly a person in altered state of consciousness if not merely adressing sleep deprivation. [I can't speak for everyone I was having no real psychotic symptoms at the stage of continued incarciration and betrayal of my rights to religius freedom]

Unfortunately at the begining of a period with psychiatry after spending 6or so years without treatment proceding a period in and out of hospital with concerned parents that jumped with stigma patterns everytime I spoke my mind, although maybe still a challenge to conservitive and politically correct, preached by the media and political pharmacuetical front groups. ... so yeah back into the life with psychiatry I experienced bad reaction to overdose of lorazepam befor passing out and then sparking a "code blue" when security are called in [i thought she had just called a code grey coz I passed out, but I woke from it in agitation and paradoxical reaction with impared cognative function and subjective feeling of being un- well and not up to my standard in cognative function and hell yeah the staff added to the agitation with thier ignorance of how my drug induced state was making me come across pretty $#@ bad. was trying to express my all to and psychiatrist who just thinking I'm crazy and writing a legal document to withhold me without any rights if I wasn;t 100percent compliant and easily convinced to succumb to the label of schizophrenia from two 15minute evaluations in my druged and apathetic state with side effect of thought disorder in blocking and the standards of realisation set that I was paranoid about medications and preoccupied with the effects of the drugs and I was withheld information about the drugs as any arguement was of no use

I should have done this to edit it...maybe psychosis is like a natural state that is expereienced with subjective trauma of oppression of the personality...oppression is present in psych evaluation and or like I was saying striving to bring the balance ... a psychotic has a very different appreciation of reality and what is really going on, just like thought insertion is a failed expression of the action of an oppressive environment over the inner persuits and jouurney. I personally relate to what I'm supposed to think is schizophrenia as a spiritual experience and not as a mental illness and category. for some reason that is bizarre that clinical guidlines say that to be without such signs of mental illness is the full appreciation that one has a mental illness to move on, perhaps I'm using a reductionist method to indicate how deluded this concept of insight in practice in mental health is rediculous, just as psychiatrist use reduction techniques to excentuate reports of ones apparent psychotic state for reference in being able to legally force one to comply with treatment for symptoms such as mine with apparent spiritual delusions....just because i'm interested in High magic.



To have insight only enacts a self-fulfilling prophecy in reality this only creates more delusion through self doubt and I see no value in a person diagnosed with schizophrenia to doubt all ideas, if one was capable to have ideas if not for the treatment to doubt it as deluded for example without the freedom to find meaning in the experiences that end up being deemed a symptom of a very real illness. Especially dangerous is having PtsD like thing going on with past psychiatric treatments or scarrs from a past with decline and say crisis in a family situation. I mean in the future when faced with what I call Transliminal experiences such as sychronicity or appreciation of a creative force in the universe or connection with god some might say, at least seeing the potentials that exist in supreme reality and primordial states. That the anxiety of associating these experiences with losing ones mind can't be good in true self awareness and groundedness in what might be a sudden expanse in consciousness... I guess that's were experience with some forms of meditation and learning a form of self-disciplin that doens't come from psych-drugs, psych drugs just make you numb and shrinking of our natural coping mechanisms, perhaps especially coping mechanisms when confronted with signs of psychosis so that it doesn;t develop into an actual disease but less attachment to forms in the mind that seem to disolve of thier own impermanent nature. Only through emptiness can one appreciate true understanding.. Psychiatry is far from empty and supreme kknowing to place such judgement and consequence to the life and identity of others forced to live a life being mentally ill and boxed in and absent of dreams.. psychiatry makes a mess