angry

i used to be anorexic and then i got bulimia and then i was a binge eater and from that gained a lot of weight. i went on a diet a few months ago and i have lost 40 pounds. im not meant to loose any more weight but sometimes i get pissed of at things and it makes me want to loose more weight.

my boy friend whom ive been out with for two years has not said anything to me about my weight lose. i have lost a lot of weight and everyone has said stuff to me but him. and that really makes me want to loose weight. i want him to notice and say something to me. maybe its that i feel like he doesnt take notice of me any more. we live together and he is out every night and i was gone for a week last week and lost 10 pounds and he still hasnt bloody said anything. i cant loose any more weight cause then i know im on the verge of going anorexic again.

part of me says .. you can stop when he says something but you wont till he does...

im so angry.

im already restricting my eating too much and everyday i keep getting lower and lower with my calories. i cant keep doing this i dont want this to come back.

i can completely understand where you are coming from. i'm recovering from bulimia, for the past year it was a real battle to control the binging but now i'm sort of over the whole food thing. i still eat 3 meals a day and usually have snacks, but the reality of it is i'm restricting my calories to lower than they should be. i don't meet the weight criteria for anorexia yet, but if things were to keep going the way they are going then i might.
and i feel where you mean when you want your boyfriend to notice. i want people to notice that maybe things aren't all alright.
maybe he just doesn't know what to say

i dont really care if other people dont notice im doing this for me so i feel better about myself. but i just want to know that he cares about me and notices significnt changes in my lifebecuse this is a big change from what i was before. before i lost the weight that i have i was so depressed i didnt want to see anyone i was extremelly isolated and i hated myself and i told him that. its a big ackomplishment for me to have recovered from bulimia and anorexia it has been the biggest one in my life. this has been the longest i have ever gone without binge/purging since ive had my ed. when he was with me was when i had an ed and he knew aobut it and he used to talk to me about it. when i started to pput on weight he told me. he noticed when i was getting fatter. why not when im getting thinner, its not that he doesnt know what to say because he used to say it to me, about how i looked. i thought that maybe he didnt say anything because he doesnt want me to have an ed again but that would make me wont to loose more weight because he doesnt say anything. people are starting to tell me im too thin and not to loose any more weight why isnt he saying anything......


i keep getting happier because of this achievment but then i get depressed all the time because of him. i love him so much and we have a good relationship but its just so frustrating.

i mean this week i have lost 10lbs and i know thats too much but i cant help it. i dont want to loose any more weight im starting to get below my bmi and my ribs .. ahh its just getting worse.

can you not talk to him about it, actually just bring it up, i know that would be really hard, and maybe you can't just a thought

it is possible that he doesnt want to say anything cos he doesnt want to encourage you. i, myself, have problems with food right now and i have recently lost nearly 2 stone very quickly. im still only just below the normal weight category but all my friends noticed and said stuff and that spurred me on. i liked it that they were noticing and commenting - its a good feeling, i admit. maybe he thinks that its best not to draw attention to it, because he thinks it will encourage you. maybe hes not sure what to say incase you get defensive, maybe he has other things on his mind and just plain hasnt noticed. be glad that he can see through appearances and is more concerned witht he person you are. but im no mind reader, i dont know which it is, but please try and eat 3 healthy, balanced meals a day - going down the whole anorexia path isnt any fun - iv been there and so have you, you know as well as i do it isnt an easy path and its no fun. im trying to lose weight now but believe me 1200 calories a day and you do lose weight but maintain your metabolism. tried and in testing.

as youll know, after being anorexic eating becomes hard and you constantly are aware of the amounts you are consuming but hun, believe me, 1200 and at least its not too drastic. its a battle but we're all here supporting each other so do your best and dont give up. good luck and sorry this is so long - i hope iv helped you hun and i hope that you can help yourself now because at the end of the day, your the one who has to do this. others can help but its YOU that needs to eat, YOU that needs to get your head around it all and YOU that has to recognise what you need to do and listen to those who are supporting you.

xxx be strong xxx luv kyai

the main thing is that im am healthier than ever and he hasnt noticed, not the fact that he hasnt noticed how thin i am.. this is my recovery and im at my best since he has known me and he doesnt say ne thing.

i think he doesnt understand how much of an achievement this is. taht i am healthier than i have been for years.

we have been together for two years and ever since he has known me ive had an ed. so i duno.

does he know you have ed

yeah he definately knows he know ive had anorexia and bulimia