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I don't need a doctor to tell me I have this. I lost the weight by drastically cutting calories (300-500 a day is what I try for, but I sometimes go over by around 200, and on those days I feel disgustingly fat). My friends, family, and doctors have told me I was eating too little, but I honestly can't help it. I've never ever been satisfied with my body. I look in the mirror and see a whale. I turn to the side and my stomach and thighs bulge, making me nearly want to cry. It's hard to do this because I have low blood sugar and would faint if I don't eat enough, so I nibble on things throughout the day to get through it. Only just enough.

I do it because I want to be like the celebrities on TV. My waist is 27 inches around, and I want so badly for it to be 24. Also, back when I was a size 1 in pants, I used to get complimented about how skinny and attractive I was, and now that I'm a size 7, the compliments have dwindled. I used to live on those compliments, being insecure to begin with, but now they're gone.

I just want to be beautiful. That's what I'm doing this for. I want people to approve of me and be jealous of me, no matter how awful and selfish that is, and I don't want to see a whale in the mirror anymore.

You are not selfish. But happiness lies within and this needs to be sorted. You need to realise you are a good and worthwhile person and unfortunately until you work on that you will never feel thin enough. Do you have any support dealing with this?

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No, not really...My parents notice that I don't eat much, but all they do is threaten to take me to the hospital.

I am sorry to hear that. What do you think about asking your Dr for some help? They might be able to refer you to the right ppl and also help explain things to your parents.

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