Ana is back. *trigger?*

When I was 17 I became anorexic, I felt great. Then I started dating and my husband made me eat my food when we were dating because of the way he was raised and it was disrespectful to his culture not to eat. I am so disgusted with myself! Now with cutting, hallucinations, physical health, etc, I also feel Ana coming back. Can I be any more imperfect? I feel like such a failure.

You are not a failure. Living life with the background of ED is very tough. Do you think this is something you could talk to the Drs about when you go in?

Cracked

Yes, if and when I go in. But I am afraid if I bring too much up they are gonna restrict A LOT of priveledges and keep me a while. I like my freedom, and my vices. Seems to be a problem of mine. Also, haven't gone in yet... still debating, having a hard time. Totally lost it at a restaurant tonight, it was awful. Ugh.

It sounds like it would be helpful for you to be totally open about all of this. I know it is scary and may mean that your privelages are restricted but in the end hopefully you will more healthy and happy.

Cracked

We shall see.

Good luck and thinking of you.

Cracked