Would this be considered an eating disorder?? *may trigger*

OK, so I have been eating very little the past 5 days and have been wating to throw up everything that I've eaten. I have only thrown everything up once, but I want to so bad. I don't eat breakfast, and sometimes I don't even eat lunch or barely eat lunch and I've been eating only a little bit for dinner.
Would this be considered an eating disorder?

~Jamie~

sounds liek it to me, but why? there really is no real point in the end, that skinny ass body is not attractive and be around for so long, why do you hate yourself so much, is that assuming to much, sorry if it is, but i'm assuming that's part of the disease, good luck with eating i hope you get healthy, MIND, BODY, and SPIRIT:)

The reason that I do this is because I've always hated myself. I hate the way I look, I need to lose weight and nothing I do ever works. I'm also very stressed a lot, so that just leads to not wanting to eat anything even more than I normally don't want to. I can go a few days without purging and without barely eating, and then I fall right back into it again. I've throw up every morning before school for 2 months now, weekends I'm fine, but school days I'm not. I talked to my guidance counselor about it and she told me to eat as much as I possibly can, even if it's not much, just as long as I'm eating something. I still tend to not eat lunch and I throw up my breakfast, and I don't eat much for dinner.
OK, I'm gonna go now.

~Jamie~

I can go a few days without purging and without barely eating, and then I fall right back into it again.

Hi,

Therapy with an ED specialist, or qualified psychologist, would help deal with the underlying self-hatred and body-image issues. The advice that I can give is a reason that helped me stop the cycle of anorexia, then bulimia (although I 'm still working on the latter). Ultimately, I realized that these behaviors wouldn't get me anywhere, weight-wise, since I was breaking down muscle tissue and lowering my metabolism by starving myself for long periods of time. Of course I did know that I could go lower in weight, but I was desperate to hide my EDs from family and friends, who highly suspected that I had an ED, so I knew that if I restricted further I would be crossing over the boundry that would result in being sent to a clinic. Also, emotionally, and physically I was drained by the effort, and really intenalizing the fact that I could possibly wreck my metabolism was a huge motivator to start eating in regular intervals, with healthy portions. Finally, four years later I'm MUCH happier with my body at a higher weight, and, most importantly, food, exercise, and my weight is not all-consuming.

Also, if you feel too stressed to eat, try eating something light (eg a salad w/ protein, & a roll). Eating something on a regular basis is always better than nothing, even if you don't feel hungry. I still fall into old habits of trying to postpone meals as long as possible, but again, ultimately it leads to overeating later, so the intention to eat fewer calories is lost, and the cycle is perpetuated. If you are overweight, and have been using ana & mia as ways to diet, it makes it even more futile. A balanced, healthy diet would raise your metabolism, and would fuel a healthy exercise routine that would build calorie-burning muscle, which helps you maintain your desired weight naturally. Of course, you can't get the automatic benefits of raised metabolism & muscle that burns calories unless you're at a healthy weight (meaning not underweight), and eat a healthy amount of food regularly (about every three hours). Otherwise, insufficient calories won't support, & will actually degenerate, muscle tissue, as well as lower metabolism.

Hey,
Well... I'm getting better with eating, even though I'm very limited with when I can eat because of school and meal times. I eat every 5 hours on a daily basis, for the most part... except weekends, then it's like every 3 hours. I've been able to keep my food down a bit more than usual lately. I've gone 5 days without throwing up in the mornings and I've been eating 3 meals a day every day. I feel a lot better this week then I have in a while.
Well, i have to go.

~Jamie~

hi im new here! i was reading your thread and its great to hear that your doing better! can i ask that since you've improved your eating habits have you become less obsessive about your weight because i have a similar problem except i am so afraid of eating in case i put on weight and when i do i feel so guilty that i use laxatives and other pills to stop it!

Hey,
Umm... honestly.... I still care about my weight.... I'm not AS obsessive about it... but I haven't exactly been eating regular meals either. I haven't been eating lunch the past few days, and my school counselor now knows that... well... actually she knew that before, so yeah.... but she told me I at least need to try to eat a little, even if it's only a few bites.
I have never used laxatives or anything like that before, so yeah. Umm.... just try talking to someone about it. That's what I did. I told my school counselor about it and it helped me.
*hugs*
If you ever need anything, feel free to e-mail me, my e-mail, yahoo messenger, and MSN messenger are posted in my profile.

~Jamie~

^^ thanks i might just do that, you can use my e-mail if you like also. i actually started to ease off the laxatives and im taking none at all and im doing fine i havent gained any more weight either which is what i was afraid of, iv also been told to go and see my school counsilor but im a little bit embarassed, but i know i should, has it helped you much?

^^ thanks i might just do that, you can use my e-mail if you like also. i actually started to ease off the laxatives and im taking none at all and im doing fine i havent gained any more weight either which is what i was afraid of, iv also been told to go and see my school counsilor but im a little bit embarassed, but i know i should, has it helped you much?

Honestly, talking to my school counselor has helped me out A LOT! She knows that I haven't been able to eat lately and she told me that she would work with me and find ways that I could help to get myself to eat. Just talking to her takes a lot of stress off of me and it makes things a lot easier. Ever since I've talked to her and she found out, I feel more confident with myself and have a lot higher self-esteem and I am able to eat more than I used to be able to.
*hugs*
Feel free to e-mail me any time you need to talk to someone, I check my e-mail every day, often 2 or 3 times a day, so just e-mail me if you need anything and I will respond as soon as I can.

~Jamie~