Scared

Hello, I'm new to this forum. I'm not diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, but today I had my first appointment with my therapist in a long time (been a few years), and she told me if I lose 5 more pounds I will have to be hospitalized. To say the least, I'm scared. I've worried about my weight since middle school, now I'm starting college. It started when I was hit with depression, however when depression led to thoughts of suicide I stopped worrying about my weight, nothing really mattered. The weight issue came back after recovery. Ever since then I've weighed myself 5 to 10 times a day. I try to lose weight every few months, however after a while the lost weight has built up. It's only recently gotten bad, I find I try to lose weight the most when stressed and/or depressed. In the past few months my sister has stopped visiting because she is angry with my parents, my aunt was hospitalized with breast cancer, my grandma died, my dog died, my engagement to my fiance was not recognized by his mother (she just got angry with both of us, said it was rediculous, and that we aren't really engaged), I quit my job, and was rejected by the college I wanted to attend. Also, I'm ignoring all of my friends, this makes no sense to me because my lonliness is making me depressed, yet I reject the company of my friends. So, long story short, I've been trying to lose weight, and this time I'm losing too much.

Just to give a better idea of my state, I'm 5'1" and weigh 92 pounds.