Horrified That I Will Be Forced To Eat

I have intrusive thoughts and images. An image keep entering my mind that I will be forced to be around people who want me to break my strict diet and won't take no for an answer.

For example, in the South, the culture includes eating a lot more. Big breakfast, big lunch, big dinner. Some old fashioned Southern women see cooking as a form of love. They show love through feeding people. It's almost spiritual. If you refuse, they get angry with you. I find that abusive and selfish, it's seems centered around them giving love *their* way and you seeing them as a good cook, but I guess that's the culture. Anyway, if someone broke my diet, I would feel suicidal. I would have nothing left.

Are there ways around this?

As far as I am aware, this is not a pro-ana group so I am not going to give you advice on how to stick with your restrictive diet.

Instead, I suggest that you be brave and eat food moderately at a healthy portion size.

Nobody has the right to force anything down your throat and be angry with you. Practising assertive behaviour here will be helpful. Express that you are aware and greatful of the effort they have gone through but that you can only manage a certain amount etc.

Dealing with actual eating can be difficult especially when it is not included in your planned meal plan. I have extreme anxiety when it comes down to this, so I can relate. I don't know if you b/p? When you are forced to eat out of your routine it can lead to b/p. Try and keep your meals moderated in order to fight the urge to binge rather than to give up completely. It usually comes in waves, so you need to learn to "ride the wave".

I get super uncomfortable in my own body when I eat and I have had to practise self-soothing techniques one of which is tracing my fingers over my palm.

i don't like eating outside or at a table with others and it hits on my nerves when you want to go out and the other person favorite thing is to eat that i do not want to do and i don't enjoy it outside.
hits on my nerves how i have to adjust again to what they like doing instead of them to me,and they feel so entitled most people that i have to compromise .so they can go ###$ themselves.