i'm so confuse , i 'm afraid Ana might come back

I suffered from anorexia three years ago (be with ana 1 years then take 8 month to recover then live a normal life) and i saw the doctor , took the pill and got better. i've stopped taking pill for 1 year and nothing is happen. Around two weeks ago i start excercise again but i eat normally just like the same. i feel good and fit. Pretty sure i'm not doing too much excercise cause i tend to wake up energatically , no dizzy. but i think because by excercising i've been started to focus on diet. I try to eat more carb in the morning so i could eat less carb and more protein at lunch and it's going well but today i don't know what happen but i ate a ton of bread with butter in the middle of the night and i feel guility. i know what happen and i try to control it. i feel like i'm going to scream but i try very hard to control so i just cried a little but i'm dying inside and i know this is going somewhere wrong and i don't know if it has something to do with Ana? Please help me out

It`s normal. The thoughts cannot disapear so fast, but it`s important not to listen to them. I`m recovered too, but I have anorexic thoughts from time to time. Just remember that life is better without this horrible illness and remember how far you have come. I make sure that I eat three meals and snacks everyday, because when I skip a meal the thoughts tend to come back. And i exercise in moderation, but not because my ed is telling me to do so, but because i feel better and more energetic.