DIE

I WANT TO DIE I DONT WANNA LIVE ANYMORE THE GUY I LOVE IS WAY OLDER THEN ME AND NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME I WANT TO DIE BEFOR I TURN 17 IM NEVER HAPPY I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY NO ONE WILL CARE IF I DIE IM STARVING MYSELF TO DEATH I FEEL SAD I NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT THE PPL I LOVE DONT LOVE ME I NEVER GET WHAT I WANT I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT SO BAD ABOUT DYING I MEAN IF UR TO WEAK TOO LIVE U MIGHT LIVE IN A BETTER WORLD NO ONE CARE ABOUT ME DONT LIE AND SAY OMEONE DOES I HATE MYSELF AND THERAPISTS JUST WANT MONEY IM SAD CAN I JUST BE HAPPY WILL I EVER BE HAPPY SO THATS

The feeling has been mutual at times... ...but look, by posting that you are recovering, so keep it up. Continue to expel all of your anguish here. However, it is an impossibility to reverse time in order to look younger so I'm afraid that you just have to accept who you are now and who you will become. The options you have right now are innumerable though - You are in control of your future - So please make the best that you can of it.