NEW HERE CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME OUT....? THANK YOU

hi this is my first time in this forum, well posting in this forum...ok so im 15 5'5 and i thinki weigh around 120 wow thats hard to admitt. anyways im not anorexic i dnt think but often i wont eat or will only eat a small portion of diner bc my bf is right there watching..i also feel that if i eat it all that wil make him think im fat so i dnt...then there are other days when i eat during the day like really eat bc well im hungry and i want to eat but im scared of getting fat so i throw it all up...whick is bad but i just do.then even after throwing it up i feel a lil better but like today i did that so tomorro i wont eat..at all. somedays i wake up and i feel skinny and happy then others like today i feel fat and nasty. my boyfriend and everyone around me think im beautiful..i think im pretty but if i was skinnier theni feel i would be GORGEOUS which is wht i want to do. i never thought honestly that id have this problem ive always been confident and now iunno wht even happened but after i throw up and i look in the bathroom mirror with tears in my eyes i feel pretty, just like when i dont eat and i weight myself i feel pretty then when my bf tells me it i smile cuz i belive him.....i know something is wrong obviously and im not saying its severe bcuz its not but i would really just like sum advice or feedback on your opinions and wht u think i have...ok thank you so much for taking the time to listen to me ramble on..lol <3


PLEASE REPLY TO THIS DNT JUST READ IT..I COULD REALLY USE ANY ADVICE OR SUPPORT THANK YOU...

and im not saying its severe bcuz its not

You throw up your food and you say it isn't severe? It's not normal, you know...

Hey lilgirl90,
Welcome to the forum! I'm a teenager, too- 16, so I know where you're coming from, and I'm proud of you for coming to this site to get help- it's not an easy thing to do, but you're being very brave.
I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time with your eating and self-esteem- I've been struggling with my eating and body image for about 4 years now, and I know how confusing and frustrating it can be. I know that you don't think your problem is severe, and I don't want to scare you, but I think you should really talk to someone you trust about what you're going through. As you know, it's very unhealthy to throw up your food after you eat, and these problems almost never go away on their own... Purging almost immediately becomes an addiction, so its in your best interest to try to attack the problem as soon as possible. I know that therapy has a lot of stereotypes around it, but honestly, it's helped me so much. I'm a much healthier person than I ever was before, and I've been able to get my eating and weight under control through therapy and seeing a nutritionist.
I know that you want to lose weight, but there are so many other healthier ways to go about it, hon! Making yourself throw up to lose weight isn't worth it. Do you go to the gym or have free time to exercise on your own? Running a little bit every day can help to burn Calories quickly, and the best way to lose weight is to eat balanced meals. The only food that really causes weight gain is food that is eaten in the evening- so if you eat more during the day and less at night, you'll burn calories while you're asleep. People who follow this pattern generally lose 10 pounds a year, according to my nutritionist.
Sorry for rambling on and on, but I hope that this helps you a little bit. Stay strong, and don't give up! You've already taken the first important step towards feeling better.
Good luck, and take care! Remember that you are beautiful, keep listening to your boyfriend when he tells you that. I hope things get better for you.
<3
drama_queen

You can take up exercise. Running or skipping etc?

My dear,


You would NOT be gorgeous if you were skinny - Please get that thought in your head. People look their best when they eat food. People that are skinny are not attractive and guys do not wish to associate with them.


Do not continue to lose weight. You have to take action now to get your diet back to normal. Begin changing things in your life and remove everything that is stale. Pursue activities that you have never done before but would like to try.


If you continue thinking that skinny is best then you will never be happy with your body no matter what size you are. If people tell you that you are gorgeous now then darn-well believe what they are telling you.


Kevster.