seeing bone

every time my fianc'e touches me he touches a bone. he is starting to complain and people can see my ribs through my skin and the top of my rib cage even when my shirt is on. i am not sure what to skinny is. it makes me feel good to know i am skinny. i told my fianc'e if i got fat i would well yeah. but anyhow i enjoy being able to wear small sizes. I know i need help. i guess im at the first step but other than that i dont know how to stop seeing myself in the mirror and thinking fat. please w/b if anyone can help before it's to late. i already get dizzy smells and have black outs. sometimes i can't even walk down the hall because my legs are so weak. i dont know what to do anymore, ive tried to get better but keep going back.

dancebabe,

You took the first step by writing to us at this forum. You also need help....quickly. Anorexia is something that WILL take your life. I almost died about 22 years ago. I had allowed my weight to fall way too low and my heart and lungs were being damaged. I was in need of help and I went about getting it.

Going for help is sometimes difficult. We tend to think help means we will end up fat...but it's not true. Our culture says that thin is in. But we have to take care of our bodies.

I sure do hope you get some help soon.

Sweetngentle

Hi dancebabe,
I understand what u r going through, because a year ago i was going through what u r going through right now. My friends would tell me that i was getting too thin and when i would come home to visit from college my family noticed my eating patterns and were also saying i was getting too thin. But yes u r right u have taken the first step in realizing that u do have a eating disorder. Now u should make an appoitnment with your doctor. Or u can talk to a close friend or someone that u trust who will be there with u for support during your treatment. It is a hard thing to deal with, Honestly,I have gained my weight back, but i still struggle with it. Good luck, and let me know how things r going and if u need any advise.