Too much Angry...Misbehaviour of others

hi everyone,
I had worked in a company last month. I was in big trouble and tension. The reason is. one girl often were looking at me in the office. I asked her that ' are u loving me' but she refused and told me that I am loving another person not u. After 1 week again she started and looking at me. Once again I asked her and she answered that same previous answer. After some week, unconsciously i started to love her. Whenever she looking at me, I had thought that ''she expects sex that is why she denied my love''. She induced my sex feelings. Whenever I approached her, she denied my love. on the contrary, as she looks at me often, my sex feelings were induced. I struggled and I was unable to work. Actually I was innocent at that time of working period in the office.I thought that she is good everything. That kind of thought made me to think about her more positively.

As my sex feeling were induced, I was in a big trouble that whenever I see her, my sex feelings were in high temperature. I got too angry on her that why she is looking at me unnecessarily. My co workers in the office known about this matter I am struggling for sex by seeing my expression in my face. Everybody criticised me indirectly that I am a brutal of sex. Almost, there are 100 people everyday were criticising me and made a bad impression over me.

I was working over 1 year in that company. On the period of working time in the office, I was in a hell. Because criticism and that bad girl. I could not bear . that is why I relieved from that company.
Recently , I relieved from that company. I am searching for antoher job in other companies. But I could not concentrate on my interview preparation. Because the hurted things in the office often comes to my mind that everybody laughing at me and I am a loser and my manhood is damaged . These are all the things going into my mind. I am unable to concentrate to get a new job. I have too much of angry over them. what can I do.
Please buddies, help me to overcome this problem.


Thanks,

Mohan

I think you really need to see a Professional Psychiatrist. The fact that you interpreted a woman just looking at you to mean something to do with sex is not a normal or healthy way to think. Also feeling like 100 people are all disliking you is not normal. You have a mental health issue of some sort and you need to address this with a Proper Professional soon. It has cost you a job right? If you continue without proper one on one care, you may find that this way of thinking gets in your way of other pursuits in life.
A Psychiatrist will not judge you and only give you helpful information. You can be safe there to talk about everything you are going through. Once you know what is going on in your thoughts, you can begin to feel better.

hi onebravegirl,

Thank you for your reply. I had consulted a psychiatrist. He gave me a valuable advice. I worked in my office almost well.

Some coworkers spoke to me indirectly that she wanted me for doing sex and of course she also behaved according to their words her sexy expression such as showing the partially breast hiding inside the cloth and sexy eyes and licking the lips. that kind of attitude made me to think like that.
I did one mistake which is the bad message sent to her. And She reported this matter to my co-workers that caused that bad situation in the office.
Before This bad situation occurred, I proposed my love first of all. I asked her dont see me. I told her several times. But she did not response properly for that kind of look. I could not bear. What can I do. I could not sleep for 3 months because of her looking. I took that she was hesistating to tell her love. but when I asked about love , she told I am not loving u . My mind said to me, she denied your love , but looking attractively that is for sex and love. After a long period of analysis myself , I took that decision that was sending a bad message to her.
In fact, I am a monogomy type that is the problem I think. If I am not monogomy type, already I would have been left her.

I am facing one problem even now that my coworker's bad words towards me. Thinking about the hurted things in the office. Sofar I did not meet that situation in my life. My negative is believing others easily. That is the problem.

Any how, that gave me a experience to me. I had a lot of positive about girls . But I did not meet like this bad girl, Inducing and making others fool.

Ok, I left it everything. Here after, I will be good . I pray God every day for the better life.


bye

Mohan.