I blackout when angry and i can't control it

jasmin wrote:It's true, you don't have to be alone!

If I don't have to be alone then why am I feeling alone,unwanted,and worthless??

Sometimes you feel like you don't deserve love and that you're worthless, but in reality it's simply not true. Of course it's easier said than done, but when you feel like this you've got to keep in mind that no matter how alone you feel you're not! This will pass. I promise!

If you are feeling alone, unwanted and worthless, Could it be that you are being slightly ungrateful for what you do have in life?
I don't mean to minimize your feelings, just dig a little deeper though. The feeling you describe are all negative right? If that is what you are focusing on that is all you will see. But open your eyes a little wider. Take a moment and look for goodness in your life. Even small things are valuable.
Like right here for instance. You have people taking the time to reach out to you-even though they are struggling as well- and they are not doing it for any other reason than they care about you. It might not have a huge wow factor for you, but I know you feel the support to some degree right? Just take a moment and enjoy it. That is a start towards being grateful.
Have you heard of a gratitude journal? Some people use it to help see the good they have in their life. It can start with simple things like a good cup of coffee, a sunny day, the neighbors cat-just very basic pleasures. Gradually if a person write in it each night, they begin to see there are things that are valuable in inter personal relationships as well.
It is a great exercise for helping people to see the light and not just the darkness in life.
It have just taken a few minutes of my life to write to you here. I shut out the whole world and only thought about you. It is meant as a gift. I hope it helps hunn. Its a small gift, but still a gift. Just like all the other replies you have from others here.
You do matter a great deal, you are not alone and you are not useless.
With love,
One
Ps-I also think it is fantastic that you are sharing here. I am grateful for that, I worry a lot for you!

Hey
I'll try that by the way I'm feeling way better.
I guess I was just feeling that way because I blacked out yesterday
But I feel happier now. The stress was just starting to get to me.
Thanks for the replies one

Your doing great Tophgrl!
These tough moments in life help you to become a strong and wise person. All any of us really have control over is a day at a time, sometimes even only minutes. I am very happy that you are feeling better!
Keep in touch 'k?
love
One

onebravegirl wrote:Your doing great Tophgrl!
These tough moments in life help you to become a strong and wise person. All any of us really have control over is a day at a time, sometimes even only minutes. I am very happy that you are feeling better!
Keep in touch 'k?
love
One

Hey one,
Ok. By the way I wanted to ask you could these blackouts be happening because of me holding my anger Back from when I was younger?? The reason why a feel a little better is because yesterday when I blacked out I controlled myself for 5min so my cousin could get out of the room so I wouldn't hurt her. I know this sounds crazy but it seemed like I was fighting my angered personality in my mind and its like I have this room with a locked door in my mind and every time I get angered or frustrated that angered side of me gets out and locks me in that room and I can't get out until, yesterday I found a way out and I stalled her long enough to get my cousin out of the bedroom and she locked me back in the room in my mind. For some reason she can lock in that room but I'm not able to lock her inside.

Toph, why did you call your anger "she"?. Do you feel like the anger is a person inside your mind? If so, then it makes sense that you blackout. This could be an alternate personality. Have you heard of DID?
With love,
One

[quote="onebravegirl"]Toph, why did you call your anger "she"?. Do you feel like the anger is a person inside your mind? If so, then it makes sense that you blackout. This could be an alternate personality. Have you heard of DID?
With love,
One[/quote

yea I do feel like my anger is a person in my mind. Yea I've heard DID my doctor told me it could be DID like 4 days ago

Be careful about DID, though, I've heard it's misdiagnosed really often. You should look for a second opinion too.

jasmin wrote:Be careful about DID, though, I've heard it's misdiagnosed really often. You should look for a second opinion too.

Ok