Opioids

I don't have anger issues normally but when I'm on opioids I can go into a near homicidal rage very easily. The problem arrises when I direct that anger at people. Sometimes the anger is over a thing, like a slow internet connection, I'll just get pissed off at the router or my computer etc. When someone else causes me a problem and I believe it to be intentional though, my anger gets directed at them. I won't seek them out and give out to them or anything but when its the other way around like someone giving me $#%^, I wont take it from them and I get real offensive. Verbally offensive but I am always hoping that the other person will turn it into a physical confrontation so I can really let the anger out.

There aren't many people around me that give me $#%^ but my uncle happens to like complaining and a couple of weeks ago he happened to complain while I was on morphine so I told him to mind his own business and he saw that as disrespect so he got in my face and I sensed he was implying that he was going to get violent so I let him have it. I stopped when he went down of course but kicking the crap out your uncle for getting in your face is a bit of an overreaction. I made the excuse that I hadn't taken my medications (I'm not on any but he doesn't know that) so he won't think I'm a complete psychopath. How do you circumvent anger like this? Like most people, I get very destructive when I'm angry and temporarily don't care about the consequences of my actions.

Anger is a Tool to learn from. At the root of it, there are usually three causes. Hurt, fear or frustration. BUT they are not about others, they are about ourselves. OUR hurt, Our fears and Our frustrations with our choices in life.
Taking them out on others, is a way of avoiding our own responsibility to face our problems.
That is why it is said that when we are angry we are Playing the victim the most.
Anger is a place to hide if you don't learn from it.
It is said that the greatest strength a man can have is to learn to be kind. Talk about self control huh?
It's not achieved overnight. But just be honest with yourself.
You can start by asking yourself questions rather than blaming others. Instead Of "That asshole made me...." think "what am I afraid of right now?"
Keep writing here, there are so many who can help you. Your on your way to figuring this out because you have already begun to ask for help.
With Hope,
One

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