Does it get better?

I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar 1, but i can remember even before any diagnosis that my anger was there and pretty severe and by the time i was 14 years old I was pulling doors completely off the wall and breaking windows and busting my head or hands through walls. my anger seemed to taper off for a little while but now its back and getting more severe again its to the point where im becoming physhically abusive to others which minus 2 incidents hadnt happened in years, i know if i ever seriously hurt someone im going to lose my mind and really take a hard ball on myself and snap, but i have been in therapy for years and they cant really offer any new suggestions. I am now to the point where if things dont calm down im going to wind up in jail or back in a mental ward. I dont want to harm myself or anyone else it just feels like when i get angry i forget whats going on around me and just react without thinking. im going crazy feeling like this. any suggestions?

Put the breaks on dude... ...just take a step back and try to reassess everything that's been goingon in your life. If you do'nt take a step back and relax, then you'll run yourself into the ground. I know that saying this is more easily said than done, but whatever it is that's angering or stressing you out can wait. you do'nt have to deal with it now. Right now, you gotta talk to your doctor and family abolut this - Open up to them all and be 100% honest.

Kevin

I have talked to my therapist and case manager about it recently and they seem not very alarmed maybe because its been going on with me for so long, but it didnt feel like I got the advice with them i needed. And my family...well my mom is extremely mood and she likes to yell and be rude so I dont think she will understand it at all, as for my father the first thing he is going to try and say is for me to go to a mental hospital. But i do not feel suicidal at this time so i dont see why that has to be his only advice for everytime i have a problem.

To those who will not understand you when you talk to them, write them a letter instead. Much more can be conveyed in a letter when the person you're communicating with is close-minded.

Thats a good idea but what exactly should i write, i really dont know how to form it into words to family as to what exactly im feeling or what i should even say in a letter

Just write what you want and don't stop until you feel that it is complete - i.e. until you have written about everything. Start with 'Hi mom/dad' and then say stuff like: 'I feel sad these days because of...'; 'I want to be happy in my life but... ..'; etc. It doesn't have to be a formal letter. It can just be scribbles on a page.

Kevin

What are you blocking out from your past?


What don't you want to remember, think about, face...



Try a different therapist, one that uses guided reenactment??

Have you ever done any research on forgiveness?
Just random, general, non-directed (in the beginning) forgiveness.

No, I'm not crazy.

*Edited by admin - Chucky

That post should not have been approved, as it's clearly spam. The user has been banned.

Kevin