hate my mum!!!!aaaagh

I am so blody angry my mother is a spiteful cow i lost my kids because i couldnt cope as i have mental health issues and am in therapy am getting better and slowly aiming at getting kids back and all she does is try to sabotage that. She even lies to my siblings about me, when we argue making out am doing wrong or saying things wrong and convinces them my health is worse than what it is therefore I must be a liar and evil whatever?!! She has tried to sabotage my previous attempts at getting therapy even my contacts with the children too. She also has tried to cut me off from my siblings lying that they didnt want anything to do with me (which if it was true would b believable the amount of rubbish she tells them about me) She had my brother convinced I was Bi polar and totally crazy, she makes me feel like $#%^. I do got issues but am not bi polar and I sure as hell dont lie. Not like her. I hate her why does she do these things? I wish she was dead she has made my life difficult always trying to wreck whatever progress I make and I dont want her in my life she is poison. Ilove her still she is my mum but I cant forgive her evil nasty ways towards me and I am sick of trusting her thinking she is sorry,has changed and then she hurts me and lets me down all over again. I am frightened of what I will do to her if I let her in my life again for her to wreck my chances of reunification (which as it stands I stand a good chance of getting my children home)because of her lying and manipulative ways so she really has to go. My kids dont need her. She uses them to hurt me. She hardly bothers onthe little contact she gets with them she doesnt ring them she is pure selfish and i wish her dead. Then maybe she cant meddle or cause me n my children the hurt she has,am takibng this into therapy am just getting out am so angry right now all i can say is thankgod she doesnt live near me.

Angel, I can see why you are so angry at her. Some people just don't want to get that they're causing damage or they don't care and they never change. You have to do what you can to protect yourself and your children from feeling the way she makes you feel. I hope you get them back soon.

Your mum sounds like mine.A wee bit borderline personality.That is maddening.Get away and stay away.Move 58 states away.Drama queens enjoy this,creating chaos.If you get angry she wins.Google borderline personality central and get some info to protect yourself.Talk to your therapist about BPD.Tell everyone what mum does to you but tell it calmly and do not make threats.Tape record it.Get witnesses.Defend yourself.Do you feel like a vampire is sucking the life out of you?Thats the way my mother makes me feel.Never treat your kids like that and be watching for signs of Mum in the mirror.