Blackouts when angry

Yes it's happened quite often man.

I have so much anger built up that I've unfortunately even snapped a few times to the point of breaking numerous doors and walls in my house and stuff. When I get a rage attack it takes over and it's almost like I blank out. I've learned to control this though, so it doesn't happen very often.

I always regret snapping afterwards.

Oh and also, I honestly can't STAND people in general.. seriously I really HATE going out in public 99% of the time, just because I hate most people. I find most people are awkward, annoying, rude, careless, selfish, cold, immature, the list goes on.

Anyways I wish you the best with your stuff.

No one has mentioned their blackouts getting them into serious legal trouble. Which is what I am faced with right now. I blacked out for a short period of time which ended up with me simply shoving some jerk in the face. I didn't end with me standing over a limp body, or someone pleading to get away from me. I have had blackouts but not to the extent of seriously hurting anyone. There are a few blackouts where I say something hurtful. There are times when I have gotten angry and I can't remember everything.

My brother and I both have this problem. Though, theyre very rare for us. His last one was a few weeks ago in class. His teacher was yelling at him for something and thank gosh only lasted a split second and all he did was shatter his pencil against a wall. Both of ours usually only last a few seconds. Unless we feel it coming on and hide in our rooms and concentrate on calming down. We don't see a tunnel but for me I can tell I'm getting there if my body gets really hot and my ears start to burn and I start to shake and see blurry. My first one was fifth grade.. a kid grabbed my butt and I got so mad I blacked out and when I came to I had apparently shattered his nose. Blood was everywhere. The kids were so scared they told the teacher he fell. The second time was in eighth grade. I was walking down the hall at school and saw my boyfriend kissing another girl. When I came to I saw that I had smashed his head into the locker and dented the crap out of the locker. Today I almost blacked out which is how I found this forum. My mom was yelling at me about nothing and I could feel myself blacking out soni came into my room and curled up in a blanket and concentrated on calming down. I layed there for a good hour. I was contious the whole time but looking back now I don't really r emember that whole hour. My brother and I suffer from depression and I suffer from extreme anxiety and panic attacks. We feel that this has something to do with our blackouts.

I know this i don't get a tunnel but ive blacked out 3 times altogether ive spent a lot of time learning to calm myself down and walk away 1st a guy who used to be my friend punched me in the mouth i put my hand to my mouth and saw blood on my hand next thing i know i had 7 guys pulling me off the guy after id smashed his head off a metal post a few times. Luckily that got counted as self defence. 2nd my dad kept going on about something and i dont know i snapped and i beat the $#%^ out of him i felt really bad after and obviously he didnt press charges and the 3rd i managed to control a little and it was my girlfriend split up with me 3 days later had sex with and started seeing one of my oldest friends and i found out about all this and id seen him the day before after he had and said hi and he walked past with his arm round her knowing i was there just being smug and i controlled my temper i was shaking at the time but as soon as they got round the corner one of them shouted something sarcastic and next thing i knew i was struggling to control my temper with 3 of my mates trying to hold me and telling him to run and that they could barely hold me and at the moment im having trouble i got threatened by my exs new boyfriend 2 days ago he threatened me and i just avoided it and walked away but then he started threatening a mate of mine saying hed rip him to pieces if he was involved with me after hed finished stabbing the $#%^ out of me and i see the guy everyday at college because he meets his gf at breaks and im currently sat shaking about just the thought of seeing him im very protective over my friends and if he threatens any more or starts on me again i know my angers got to the point where ill black out again and thats going to end badly.

but if its any help for the rest of you mine may possibly be due to me being bipolar which unfortunately means we get excessive amounts of adrenaline pouring into our blood stream and this is possibly a cause of the blackouts

"I am emotionally numb and do not feel much of anything except anger. That is the only emotion I can feel."

Consider this: If you can feel anger then you can feel emotion. If you can feel emotion then you could feel love. Love is so pertinent here because it is like a polar opposite of anger. And is just as powerful an emotion at that.
My point-try to rationalize anger (as well as the fear(s) it come from) and focus some on love in its many aspects. Maybe that might help.
In some way I feel that all angry people are my kin. So, here I am trying to add my 2 cents...
Lastly, remind ones self that 7-8 hrs sleep, good diet, and regular exercise go a long way for angry people as well as those who suffer from depression.

I recently had an anger blackout-for me more like tunnel vision. I got angry becuase a guy in a parking lot got irritated at my mistake. Some how it set me off. For 2-3 minutes I was in a rage over a slight. Within minute I rolled back into the parking lot and verbally accosted the driver. Quickly things started getting ugly and when I started to come to my senses I then tried to run for it. I couldn't get out of the parking lot and the guy approached me with a base ball bat. Finally I got a break in the traffic and took off and then with in seconds I was like WTF just happened?! I quickly came to my senses and realized I had totally FU; I was completely at fault. Even though no physical harm occurred it as still way too freaky for me. Someone could have been hurt, he had kids with him, I was with my god daughter- I had created a dangerous situation and was pretty much an a-hole. So I am confessing, too.

I have only blacked out once from anger but it was the freakiest thing. I grew up afraid of feeling anger because I did not want to become my father, so I suppressed it and was convinced I could not feel it. Clearly I do have a lot of anger and now have no experience controlling it. I do not like having no control and having no memory of the blackout incident makes me uncomfortable, especially because I was in a room of about fifty people who all saw that side of me that I didn't even get to see myself.
A guy was trying to tell me that self harm is beneficial in the sense of getting people help and how we couldnt prove that it is bad without walking in the footsteps of a self harmer. Well this entitled $#%^ was pretending he knows stuff he knows nothing about so all I remember was I was laughing derisively and shaking my head that this guy couldn't possibly believe that what he was saying was okay. My boyfriend was with me and he told me later that he could tell I was going to go off (I had only gone off at someone once before, and regrettably it was at my boyfriend, though at least I didn't black out for that one).
After that I remember yanking up my sleeve, shoving my scarred arm in his face to prove my point, screaming ###$ you and then storming out. But apparently a lot more than that happened and I only found out well afterward. I guess I was screaming at him for several minutes straight, though I don't know how I was able to be coherent if I was blacked out.
Anyway, it was surreal, scary, and exhausting, but I felt no remorse. And the experience has made me really afraid of showing anger again, putting me back in the same place I was before the incident of suppressing it constantly and letting myself be abused.
I want more than anything just to know why I can't remember it. It felt the same as when I had a seizure once and lost memory, but there was no seizure involved. It still freaks me out months after the blackout anger episode.