anger... mother...

I feel like I shouldn't type this but I am just so mad. My shoulder is painful when I type but I don't care. How am I suppose to make my mother feel that she makes me angry and please she should just stop what she is doing. (I so much want to use many punctuation marks right now.)

Now talking to her about this isn't effective because the following is my mother: She was so spoiled as a child in a place where money and power is the theme. She grew up being above. You could say that she has antisocial personality disorder. It's only about her.

If I tell her her faults she'll retaliate with mine. "Sorry, mother but maybe if you'll look closely the reason why I'm like this is because of you."

I have forgiven and let her off of all the horrible things she's done to me. I admit the mistake in my part. When the psychologist ask me if everything is all right at home I never blame her. I blame my self out of the concept of free will. But she is so insensitive. She doesn't change with us. She can't accept the fact the she is a mother right now and not single anymore.

The reason why am mad right now is because I broke/dislocated my shoulder of my dominant hand and it is painful but she just brushed me off and made me do errands like there's nothing wrong. Too bad for me when I use my hand my whole upper arm contracts and its painful.

I am sorry to say this but please to people who are not mentally perfect please just please be not selfish and produce children that you can't take care of.

I think you are too much involved anger but this is bad for your health several times you would loose your temperament also. So try to be happy and enjoy with your little but happy life.








AcidReflux

I know but sometimes I can't help but wish to be selfish. You see the things that she did against are my most valued. My source of happiness. Why am I the one who is always sacrificing? BUT you're right. Man, I hate being raised a Christian and I having too much conscience doesn't help. I'll just settle for scraps.
Yes, world violate us nice people. It's not like we'll kill you. We are nice remember? We'd rather be mentally ill than slap you in the face.

SORRY, I just can't help but type that. BUT you are really right. And as for my counter (please anyone don't get inspired) at you I quote, "be nice anyway". I still love my mother anyway.

SORRY. I'm weird and ambivalent. But you're right.

Hey, moonwake! How are you doing? Your mom has no right to treat you this way. It's like she doesn't care about your feelings. It is not your fault that she makes you feel like this. Feelings are not something you can always controll and she is responsible for her own actions as well. If she treats you like crap and you end up feeling like crap, it's her fault not yours.
No one should get to make you feel this way, moonwake. Please feel free to vent here as much as you want.

why is there no crying emoticon here?

They just won't listen to me. They want me to take NCLEX-RN (licensure for nurse) and I said it isn't practical for us right now (I'm not US educated and so I must be accredited first. Now accreditation costs a lot of money and we're poor because of lots of loan. But she insists that she'll fix it. Please, this martyrdom effect will just complicate things for us.

Did I mention that majority of our loans are because of her. She insists that it's because of us (college). I understand but oh please the reason why our poor life became hardest is because of her doing. My mother tried to do a business which failed. Did she learned? NO. She did it again and again and again. For example, she postponed paying the bills to co-own some petty business. Business fails leaving her bankrupt and the bills file up. And that's just not it...she did more for me to type. We talk to her about this but she just closes her ears. She always sees others mistake but never hers.

Wow, typing does help release my stress. I could do this more often.

P.S. thank you Jasmin

You're welcome! Vent all you want here. They should listen to what you have to say, especially since you are probably right and it is your life after all. I'm sorry she wasted so much money and still blames it all on you, it's very unfair.