idiot

im a stupid idiot. i hate myself so damn much. i mean who wouldnt. im stupid. ive done this to myself again. u idiot ifonly.

nobody gives a $#%^ about u. everybody hates u. look around. nobodys here. nobody cares. they know ur in pain but they couldnt care less.

i wanna screaaaam.

u bitch.

u bitch. i hate u ifonly. u peoples lives up. u. its ur fault. u deserve pain. a lot. nobody cares.

hah...u thought god loved u?? u thought he'd forgive u. why should he? he hates u like everyone else.




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arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i hate this,

the pains too much.

i want somebody.
damn it. they hate u. get that ito ur stupid head.
i hate u.
shut up. $#%^ up. shut up.


arghhhhh,. stupid bitch .
looke what uve gone and done.
u up again ifonly. well done. its what ur best at.

idiot.

arrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. go away. stop. just stop.

u bitch. i hate u. they all hate u.

u saw the way they looked at u. they dont want to know u anymore. they think ur evil. they know the truth now. i HATE THIS $#%^. I HATE MYSELF.

I WANT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT AND BEAT MYSELF UP TILL IM BLEEDING ALL OVER AND BRUISED.

its what i deserve. im a stupid bitch who just screwed up YET AGAIN

idiot.

((ifonly))

I'm here for you. PM me if you need someone to talk to.. I really hope you feel better.

But it's not your fault and you don't deserve pain.

I felt a lot like you feel right now last night.......I was so sad and mad that I did not have the energy to post. I think I understand exactly what you are going through.......I'm going to send you a PM; I hope you answer it.

Dear Ifonly, I really hope and pray that you will get help as you sound pretty desperate and depressed. Please see a mental health counselor and your family doctor. YOu need to reach out and get professional help for your issues.
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angercoach wrote:Dear Ifonly, I really hope and pray that you will get help as you sound pretty desperate and depressed. Please see a mental health counselor and your family doctor. YOu need to reach out and get professional help for your issues.
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thanks angercoach. actually i've been getting various forms of help for a long time. and yeh anger's come up a lot. i just keep slipping up all the time. not sure they know how to fix me

Hey ifonly, do you know if they have found any chemical or electrical imbalances in your body which could be the cause of the anger?