talk myself

Hello!

This is my first question in this forum...

I talk with myself many times

For example,I was in university and they trampled my rights,After four years I leave that damn place,And memory of that damn place still offend me

Some times I talk with myself,(When I'm alone)and I dream I am employees of that university...one of them blamed me more and more

While I dream him,I talk with myself, And I dream I beat him.

I have repeat this from 2 years ago

Of course I talk with myself when I'm alone from many years ago.

I hate some persons that trampled my family's right(this is another story) and some times I think about this and I dream I beat them and at the same time I talk with myself and for example I dream he is now and here and I punch to him and I move like a real involve..


Now my question is:

1-What is the name of sick that I have?

2-Do I must tell to girl that I want to marry with her?

3-How can I cure my self?Do I need drug? May I cure myself without drug?

4-what do you think about my marry?Is it necassery That I stop to cure and then marry?Or marry helps me to cure faster?becuase if I marry I'll be less alone....
I do it when I'm alone,

I have an uncle that he talks with himself too much. and he is mentally..

what do you think about my marry?

About my personality:

I help others,And friends are satisfy of me. and Do not use alchol at all.

I exercise a little,martial arts ....I send articles for magazine and they are really admire because of quality of my articles...

I don't sex with girls,And never did yet I like decent..,I'm almost 28,This dami university happend 6 years ago...

For several times I tried to make students be united and I never luck..

I interested to politic,I want better life for persons,And enjoy help others,But unlucky to united them....When Im thinking about politic it makes me offend so ... I want to fight for freedom.
and I leave there after 4 years,after 2 years still bad memory offends me....

I don't like to use drugs....

Thanks in advance..

Hi, simorgh! Welcome to the forum. I think it's natural to get angry sometimes, but maybe you do have some issues. Perhaps you get a bit too carried away when you imagine beating up the people who hurt you, after all this time.
If you have doubts about marriage, you should talk with your girl. In fact, you should probably tell her everything, including the fact that you might have some anger issues. I hope you'll be able to work it out. You could look for a therapist to talk with, if you want to and if it's possible.

Hi
Thanks for answer,

When I was in exam,Sometimes I talk with myself,while I was thinking about problems in test,Is it natural?

I'm not sure if it's normal. Maybe you are too stressed and that is why you do it.

Dear simorgh,
If you are ruminating on this issue and it is distracting you to the extent that you can't concentrate on your responsibilities such as an exam - that is not normal. I would encourage you to consider talking to a family doctor about this since you may be dealing with anxiety or depression or some other issue. You could gain some help from individual counseling since this is bringing so much distress in your life.
What you think about - you will act out eventually. Thinking about harming someone else is not going to decrease your anger - it will escalate it
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At some point you need to forgive. Forgiveness doesn't always mean that you let the other person off the hook for any consequences of their behavior. But, it will result in getting the person and the offense out of your mind and out of your life. You are the winner because their offense no longer controls your thinking. *mod edit- advertising removed*

Dear angercoach ,Thanks for reply

If you are ruminating on this issue and it is distracting you to the extent that you can't concentrate on your responsibilities such as an exam - that is not normal.

No,I can focus easily on my exam.But sometimes in exam I talk with myself..

Let me tell you more:

Let me tell you something,Some times I dream that I talk with our learder or president ..... in a speech and I talk with them ,About my problem,And about my country problem....


Another thing:Suppose I'm in a bus,And I talk with myself and explain my homework for myself,Is it normal?because people when see me in this case thought it is not normal..


And you know,

you know that you give every thing that you focus on it....

and I met our president in real time.Yes I did,I really did,

He came to our state and I take his hand and talk with him with loud voice..!!!!!!!!!

I said about my problem in university,

Some one call my phone later and ask

And they did nothing for me....

Anyway...

Sometimes I watch some films in internet,I am alone and I said interesting interesting, I tell what is in my mind with loud voice






I can start my education in another university and go advance easily ,Because after I leave university I continue my research and I write very good tutorials for magazine.In university,I fall in love with one of my classmate and ask her for marry,And she did not agree,and that was greatest trike for me and made me very sad,made me cry ,Now I know that girl was not suite for me,but fall in love was big strike for me,When I wen to damn university other students mock me,And the environment of that damn university was so bad and hateful ,Then I prefer to learn my lessons myself,Without going to class and teacher. It was hard but I passed exams, But sometimes stupid teachers press me that you must come,And i couldn't tell them I fall in love and....


The story of that girl was greatest strike for me in life.

But now I rebuild myself again...

I did not surrender..and continue....In my life there are many points that I fail,But Again,stand and raise with hope...




Again,before therapist I want to research about myself.I wan to check myself...

I do not want to go therapist,I want to find problem and research about it,Of course by helping you and others,Thank you

Thanks for your guidance!

Dear Friend, it's difficult to diagnose a condition without doing a thorough evaluation. It could be that you have difficulty concentrating and find it helpful to talk out loud to yourself to keep on track. If the talking is inappropriate or not in sync with reality then - there are generally mental health issues going on.

I would say that your behavior - talking out loud - is not socially acceptable and thus, it will be hard for you to build friendships and relationships.

You would find counseling helpful in that you could investigate the problem further and learn to interact and dialogue appropriately with the therapist.

In any case, I do believe you would find professional counseling helpful even for 3-4 sessiona.

I research about myself,I search about paranoid,I have some of signs of this disorder.

I want to know how to cure this disorder?Is it treatable?How?

Thanks in advance!


I read the person that has 4 signs of 7 signs have paranoid...

1-Sometimes I misinterpretation what persons say about me.

2-I don't trust to others in order to give them my information

3-I have spite of some persons,For example employee of university that I studied there




But some signs does not compare with me:

I'm funny,And help other people...Others admire my grafecul...!!!

Another thing is that I really do not care if others attend me..because paranoid persons cares and are sensitive to ignorance

But I do not care...

Hello simorgh, in my opinion, I think that it is healthy to talk to yourself if you are building yourself up, learning about you, and conscious of your surroundings. There is a social norm of thoughts usually being silent, but some people speak their thoughts out loud. As many people who fit classifications of "mentally unstable" (not saying you by any means) do this, society has deemed them "troubled" or "unnatural." I find that most of my "talking" now is done through the keyboad on my laptop or in the confines of my mind. In a way, I feel that I am freeing myself of worry when my thoughts are allowed liberation, instead of feeling "trapped" in my cranium, by getting out in some way. People don't understand my "excessivity" in being able to comment on almost anything. I don't need them to understand it. I understand and accept it whilst, in a face-to-face meeting, I keep everything succinct and professional. I will be responsive and won't speak unless I have a thought or idea or emotion to convey.
I would encourage you to keep on writing on this forum because it is good to channel your "speaking" into a healthy habit, such as writing. My thoughts.

Hell radames!

Thanks!


Because of suggestions,I went to therapist ,We talked and he gave a test,

Yesterday I went there again and he said he is not sure I'm paranoid!

And he said I give your record to another therapist in order to continue.

He said the factor of pessimistic in your test is high,But maybe it is because of obsession .....


Next week,I'll go to another therapist in order to continue..



I think I have some level of obsession,I want to reinforce "intuition"

Do you know how can I do that?