AAAAARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

deleted - was i really that angry?
sorry

Dear Friend, you wrote:

OH and yes i am still alive. not that anybody even noticed i went for a while. thanks a bunch.

I think you have been posting in the mental health forum because I don't recognize you. Please get some mental health counseling *link removed by mod*

Your anger is so intense - you need counseling for it. If you can't afford it - go to a community counseling agency which will provide a sliding fee scale.

I know you are looking to vent - but, your anger is out of control and simple anger management skills will not help you explore the deeper issues you are struggling with - most likely, depression, etc.

Ifonly,
I hear you. At this moment I am unable to come up with any useful feedback. This terrible bad storm of rage in your head will eventually pass, it will just take awhile.