First post - help

I just joined this forum today. I wanted to share some experiences that happen recently. I have a problem taking petty annoyances personally, but I had a confrontation yesterday that I am still upset about.

Yesterday, I was about to leave the grocery store and put my groceries in the back seat of my car. Well to get to the back seat, I must unlock the drivers’ side to unlock my backseat. In the process, I left my front door open because I was going to get in my car in within a minute. Before I left, I had to put the cart away and there was not a corral in the parking lot to use and not wanting to leave it in the parking to get in others’ way, I put it up by the doors of the store. I was literally gone from my car maybe 10 seconds…I was that quick. I got inside my car and closed the door and as I was ready to leave, a burgundy van drove up next to me (he was parked in a spot directly across from the one he pulled up to). He wanted something, so I rolled my window down and he said, “Did you not see me there?” I told him I was sorry and I was just putting my cart away. As I was about to drive away, I thought, “Who does this SOB think he is thinking I have to bow to his whim as he is king of the world?” He just waiting for me to shut my door so he can pull up the van to the spot he went to so he can be 3 feet closer to the store, like his lazy butt can’t walk that far! So I got mad, and as I was driving away, I honked my horn and gave the one finger solute and the woman with him said “F*** you, you fat cow”. I drove off but the fat cow remark really set me over the edge. As a person who has struggled with weight, I was really hurt. So I drove back and got their license plate number, hoping to call the police reporting harassment or at least to find out where they live or something. I felt so out of control and helpless and was crying hard because I felt so hurt. I called my bf in front of another store I was going to and he told me to calm down (he did not want me to do anything stupid to get me in trouble and be safe to drive). He said there was not a whole lot I can do. I can’t have someone arrested for calling me a name. However, I wanted so bad (and still do, but it is lesser) to get even to gain control and let them know that they cannot disrespect me like that. At home that night, I even attempted to look up the license plate online but never got an address. But at the end of the day, is it really worth it? I don’t want to go to jail over someone I don’t see again…my bf made a point that the woman would have said fat cow to anyone no matter what…it was not personal, they were just mad at something. Granted, I should never have honked and flipped them off. I could have brushed it off and said whatever…but they started it by acting like they are the rulers of the world.

That is one thing that really triggered me lately. This morning, I just ran into petty annoyances. On the way to work, I stopped at a gas station to get a few things and the line was kind of long. There were two cashiers. One was chatting away with someone who seemed to be a regular and I was annoyed, thinking, hurry it up, quit chatting and get him out of here…there are people waiting. When I was next in time to check out, I the second cashier was available but she took a second before waiting on me. I think she was getting money or something, but why did she had to do that when it was my turn? I know it was coincidence, but I took it personally. I also took personally a situation at McDonalds this morning. I did not want to wait through a long drive through line, so I went inside and ordered two round eggs and 3 sausage patties (I am doing low carb) and there was another person in front of me and she had yet to get his order, and she got him out of there with his food and my platter of eggs and sausage was ready to go in the bag and everything. But she does not give me my food, she instead starts taking another customer’s order. I was thinking, how could she do that to me? Really old people should not work at a job they can’t do correctly. If they can work it, fine, but really, she should have given me my order before waiting on the next customer. I asked another employee to give me my order and she did, but I had to ask. It should have been given to me. I took control by asking for it, but my food should have been in my hands in the first place. I don’t like being disrespected and treated like I don’t matter in which all these situations have in common. Furthermore, I don’t like to feel powerless, like a wimp who must sit there and take it. Am I crazy and expect too much? What is my deal? I don’t like feel angry over petty annoyances, but the first situation was more than that, but that is rare. Be gentle, as this is my first post, but be truthful. I recognize that I have a problem….Thanks!