Insane anger and fantasize

Hey.
I thought I am a really calm boy, but looking back I can get very angry and it sometimes takes for hours. I think I have ASPD, but I haven't been diagnostized.
I have 2 brothers, they're 20,22 years old and I live with them, because they don't leave, and Im still in highschool.
I've never been really abused, but everyone makes me mad.
I can't sleep because they make noises, they play music on the speaker loudly etc.
My parents always arguing in little things.
I haven't written everything, its hard to explain the reason of my madness, but I everyday fantasize about killing my whole family after torturing them, and I go into details.
Other fantasizes: Torturing killing my classmates, teachers, killing all the people in my village, killing every black gpsy with a shutgun (Not in USA).

I hate so much my classmates, who really thinks that we're friends. Its enough if He talks to me, Its get hard to control myself not to attack him.

Sorry for the mistakes, English isn't my first language.
Do you fantasize about killing your family? What to do to feel less anger? I'm playing football to put out anger but its only once in a week.
Thank you for helpful comments.

Hi there, as long as you don't act on your feelings and thoughts, that is what is important! If these fantasies are really bothering you and affecting your functioning overall, it might be a good idea to seek professional help. At least you are aware that it bothers you, which is certainly a good thing! Also, playing a sport is a great outlet to manage your anger, however any type of physical activity can also be helpful. Taking a walk, running or swimming are also great for releasing anger. If you only play football once a week, try doing another activity on the other days. Best of luck to you!

Hey. Its just hard to act normally when I feel that anger, and people can see something is wrong with me. Unfortunately I live in a village, there is not much opportunities to do sports. I'm planning to go to psychiatry but I don't want anyone to know about this in my famiy. Thanks for your help!

FunnyRainbow wrote:Hey.
I thought I am a really calm boy, but looking back I can get very angry and it sometimes takes for hours. I think I have ASPD, but I haven't been diagnostized.
I have 2 brothers, they're 20,22 years old and I live with them, because they don't leave, and Im still in highschool.
I've never been really abused, but everyone makes me mad.
I can't sleep because they make noises, they play music on the speaker loudly etc.
My parents always arguing in little things.
I haven't written everything, its hard to explain the reason of my madness, but I everyday fantasize about killing my whole family after torturing them, and I go into details.
Other fantasizes: Torturing killing my classmates, teachers, killing all the people in my village, killing every black gpsy with a shutgun (Not in USA).

I hate so much my classmates, who really thinks that we're friends. Its enough if He talks to me, Its get hard to control myself not to attack him.

Sorry for the mistakes, English isn't my first language.
Do you fantasize about killing your family? What to do to feel less anger? I'm playing football to put out anger but its only once in a week.
Thank you for helpful comments.

first of all ask yourself that question why you are this angry ?Try to find the answer yourself since your anger didn't come from the void it has accumulated over the past years.I can tell that you hate your family for not digging enough to notice that something is wrong with you and the same thing applies to your teacher and classmates they are all strangers to you since they don't see that you are suffering all alone.maybe you are depressed who knows but anyway seek the help of a professional .

I don't need my family and my classmates/teachers help. They wouldn't be able to help at all.
I think Im just too narcissistic and I hate everyone else around me because they're driven by emotions, and It means they're weak. I hate them because they're really stupid. (example my father can't use the money and because of that I can't have my own room where I could be alone)
I hate when they talk to me. Even if someone would try to help, I don't have the ability to have a connection with them.