Trying to Utilize Anger to Escape Apathy

Howdy--I'm trying to use anger at my family, in order to escape my anger, anger, and I was looking for help, to do that.

I'm just so blame tired of being flat. Is there anyone here that can assist?

I try to spend my time reading. but the anger doesn't go. today morning i was pacing the room and blasting at my family. though they werent around like imaginary recipients.