Working with children

I've recently gotten hired as a child tutor (mathematics). I've been doing well for about a month, but the job doesn't offer medical benefits. This means no insurance. This means no meds. I signed up for governmental assistance since I only make about 250 a month (not enough to live on). While I am now covered under government health care, the soonest I can see a doctor to get back on my meds is the middle of June. My meds ran out last month. I've been coping through willpower alone. A few weeks ago, I threatened a child bodily harm. I was able to pass it off, but I knew it was pretty bad. It's a kid. I've never been violent with children (and I can count the times with adults on a single hand). It just worried me that I became so frustrated that I threatened a child. I shouldn't be working with kids, but it's the only income I have. I should quit. I'm afraid to go to work (though I keep going anyway). I even explained to his mother what I said and he seemed to back me in my decision, but I still worry about it. This is not something that should be done. A grown man does not threaten children.

In my experience they do.