Overwhelming hatred and misanthropy

I'm 24 and am in a living hell as I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about nothing but how much I hate people, distrust everyone, and believe that everyone is evil and concerned only with themselves. I have zero sex drive or desire for friends or a girlfriend anymore and I know this is making me very very unhappy, as bad as any physical pain but I don't know how to stop thinking about how much I hate people. Practically every waking minute I'm thinking about negative experiences with people I've had and I even think about wanting to hurt people and fight as a release of anger. This has been building up in me through the last few years as I've had a number of fairly bad things happen (screwed over in business, running into bad people and psycopaths a million times) that I keep replaying over and over and over. I was not normally like this and was NOT born psychopathic but my hatred and desire to inflict misery on others is just a result of all the pain I've experienced from others, I just keep thinking about it and it keeps building to the point where now I feel like it's getting overwhelming and the only thing I can do to release the anger is to hurt someone physically, which I won't. I don't know what to do. Common methods like writing an angry letter and burning it or hitting a punching bag to let out some of the anger does nothing for me. I exercise every day too but it does very little to help me escape the torment of the negative thoughts I'm thinking every waking minute.

I have something that may help you with your anger. I was listening to National Public Radio and there was a personal trainer on talking about fighting depression and anger. He said he was going to the same things that you're going through and he didn't see an end in sight. The thing that changed his life was good diet and exercise. I know you said that you work out every day but he said that unless you're reaching a level of intensity you're not going to feel any endorphins.

He was saying that there's three levels of intensity, the first is walking, stretching, and anything that doesn't get your heart rate going. The second would be lifting, doing a light run, and anything that kind of get your heart rate pumping. The third though, is where the endorphins really kick in, and that's by doing hard-core aerobics, Long runs, intense sports like basketball, sprinting, etc. basically the third level is whenever you start panting and sweating really hard, but that's where the real endorphin boosts kicks in!

I don't know where you live but I was suggest looking up meet ups at meet up.com, and then there you can join people around you in sport you know once or twice a week. Not only will the sport help you, but also getting to know new people will help stop the negative energy flowing in you. Good luck!

throwaway281 wrote:I'm 24 and am in a living hell as I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about nothing but how much I hate people, distrust everyone, and believe that everyone is evil and concerned only with themselves. I have zero sex drive or desire for friends or a girlfriend anymore and I know this is making me very very unhappy, as bad as any physical pain but I don't know how to stop thinking about how much I hate people. Practically every waking minute I'm thinking about negative experiences with people I've had and I even think about wanting to hurt people and fight as a release of anger. This has been building up in me through the last few years as I've had a number of fairly bad things happen (screwed over in business, running into bad people and psycopaths a million times) that I keep replaying over and over and over. I was not normally like this and was NOT born psychopathic but my hatred and desire to inflict misery on others is just a result of all the pain I've experienced from others, I just keep thinking about it and it keeps building to the point where now I feel like it's getting overwhelming and the only thing I can do to release the anger is to hurt someone physically, which I won't. I don't know what to do. Common methods like writing an angry letter and burning it or hitting a punching bag to let out some of the anger does nothing for me. I exercise every day too but it does very little to help me escape the torment of the negative thoughts I'm thinking every waking minute.

You are 24 and you hate people? Nothing abnormal about that. The only thing abnormal is that you are honest enough to admit to it. Most people hate everyone outside of their circle of family and friends, and most of those people hate their family and friends. Just walk into any city around the world and look at all the processions of cynical, contemptuous faces. Hatred of others is what makes us human, just be thankful that you aren't one of the hypocrites that mouths empty platitudes about love while inwardly hating everything, just like the rest of us.

There is nothing wrong with you; there is something wrong with the people who tell you there's something wrong with you.

I know you said that you work out every day but he said that unless you're reaching a level of intensity you're not going to feel any endorphins.

Hi Distant Angel,

So pain-induced endorphins are your answer
to the disorientation that Cledwyn Bulbs has so insightfully described for "throwaway".

I am of a different view, of an understanding that Like-Affects-Like.

By this commonsense rule-of-thumb,
opiates merely treat the pain of living amongst the morally-diseased.

The misanthropy of mankind is not fixed by endorphins,
because the misanthropy that "throwaway" echoes to his tormentors
originates from people's obsession with their imaginary importance, their grotesque self-pity.

Until you can undo the spell of self-importance, the moral disease that infects almost everybody,
you have Nothing Effective to treat the cause of throwaway's emotional distress.

The angelic theology of the luvvies is demonstrably failing to rid mankind of cruelty,
because they are using the wrong tool for a dirty, dirty job.

First priority is to get your thinking straight.
Until then, we humans are no more than an empty borrowed opinion.