Yesterday I was told by my therapist that as my issues stem from the way I was brought up by my dad as a child I need to process the anger that has built up in more productive way (instead of aiming it at my girlfriend, or throwing furniture around the place (I have been told that I am not allowed to hurt myself, anyone else or the furniture)).
So today I went out deep into a forest and smashed up old trees with bits of old tree and shouted loudly 'at my dad' for all his wrong doing. I was so scared to go and do it, thinking that my rage would be uncontrollable, but I really enjoyed the effects of it afterwards, I felt so clear, so light and so very different to when I left to go and do it. I actually had a smile on my face when I got home. A smile!
I doubt I will do it regularly but it definitely shifted something in me. I am really glad I did it because it broke me out of my cloudy depressed helpless state, which I can sit in for days at a time if I don't do anything about it. Now I have a very effective way to deal with it.
Does anyone else do this sort of 'on tap' anger management? What sort of stuff do you do? I think I could do with a few different ideas to play with... I know that I could get a punchbag to hit, but something about being in nature really seemed to help. Any ideas welcome.