Anger & jealousy on others' relationships...

Hello!

First of all
I don't have friends, I spend most of my time in front of my computer, I never actually needed the company of others, I never hang out anywhere, rarely did even in high school. Now it's my 5th year at my uni, and I still haven't developed a normal friendship with others there, of course I can talk about nearly anything when I meet them, I just never talk about private stuff with them... Most of the times when I'm with others is at my workplace, but I don't hang out with any of my colleagues either.
I simply don't have a need to be among others. But I want to have. I attended a psychodrama course (self-knowledge group therapy). Social phobia is just a very small issue for me, maybe I'm just shy.

The fact that I don't have friends and I'm an indoor type never bothered me until this year, spring. Whenever I walked in my city, I saw lots of couples, kissing, holding hands, snogging etc. It all made me damn angry. because deep inside I'm just jealous. If I get my mind set on these things and when I walk in public, I just feel I could run into people and hurt them. (only men) One other thing I'm inclinable to is self-pity. Till weeping. I feel everyone around me is conspiring against me when they are having fun, when they show their love in front of everyone in public transport or on the streets.

Some might say: why don't I get a girlfriend? Then all this would be over. My self-assessment is just bad. I think my last 10 years in my life is just screwed, because I wasn't socially active at all. I know my story isn't 100% about anger problem, but I really hope you can help! Thanks in advance!

You sound remarkably cheery for someone with an anger problem.

What exactly are you phising for? If anything you've sort of put a smile on my face. Almost...

Nice...

Have I been placed on moderation here?