I am an emotional drinker?

I was drinking a half a bottle of vodka and a few beers a day. Then I started attending AA, so now I am trying to quit. I went through withdrawal and quit for like a week or two, now I am struggling to get through everyday because I feel like I am OBSESSED with liquor. Today I have bought liquor twice and didn't go to AA. It is not even just when I face emotional problems, it is also because I start to shake and have very quick mood swings that feel like they are tearing me apart. Then they go away as soon as I have a drink. I just don't know what to do. It feels hopeless. I also have a serious mental illness that makes my emotions go all over the place with little reason. So it just feels like even if I can quit, there will always be a time when I absolutely feel like I need it because I get upset so easily. What should I do? I am also on seven different medications which I don't take if I am drinking.

It’s very dangerous condition. When you become emotional then you drink alcohol. Its very wrong. You have to remove your problems not drink alcohol. If you feel mental illness then you have to contact with doctor.