drinking getting bad again...###$!

well i'm on a hardcore drinking binge again. i thought i was past this...stress is, once again, making me hit the bottle hard. i'm at the point again where i'm drinking on something or i get sick. i'm losing my boyfriend and reconnecting with my ex, which is very bad! we are both very heavy drinkers and crazy self-mutilators. i'm getting back into drugs, too. ###$! this sucks. i've already drank a bottle of wine today and plan to go out and party later. heroin, speed, cocaine...i hope i don't run into any of this stuff. i can barely hold down my job as it is. i just need to get out of this rut. i'm seriously thinking about aa so i can keep my boyfriend. i don't know what to do. is there any way out? my life is going to $#%^.

AA and NA work. I've been sober since my first contact with AA over 35 years ago. The only requirement is a desire to not drink. Although the program does not work for people who do not want to quit, going to meetings sometimes gives one the desire to stop.
Good Luck,
Jim S