How to get help anonymously? Therapy without a record of it?

I have had an ongoing issue with alcohol - i have successfully quit on my own for long periods - months and months… i did this on my own w/out counseling. I made the mistake of thinking I could “have a drink” here and there - which led to a relapse and while at a family outing got intoxicated and got into an argument with my spouse and made. A fool of myself in public.

I am concerned about the negative stigma of attending therapy. I am concerned that if I call my health insurance to get a referral for “alcohol abuse” or see a therapist - it will create a record of this issue. I have a large life insurance policy that I am worried could b impacted.

I am not against getting help, but I don -‘t want to endanger my professional reputation, risk the negative stigma that I would suffer at work if it were somehow to leaks and I don’t want a paper trail that I sought out treatment - as it could impact my employment or my life insurance, or other parts of my life.

How do I go about getting some kind of professional help without having to make some kind of official record that I sought out treatment. There must be a way to get legit help..

I have considered attending online group meetings that are done virtually..where I am just a random “login” and no one really knows who I am. I would think that seeing a professional one on one woudl be better - but even if I paid cash for these treatments, there might be some kind of record with my name, SSN, etc…

I assume if I saw a professional and went privately - paid cash - then I woudl be protected via confidentiality and the therapist woudl not release my records to anyone and there would beg no insurance record of my visits…

Any one here get help but have same concerns I have and how did you get real help w/out risking professional repercussions?
Thanks

Good question. If the insurance is paying for therapy, they just see it as an ICD diagnostic number on the paperwork submitted by the doctor.
HIPAA prevents this from becoming news. You, your family & friends already know that there is a problem.

Most people that knew after I had entered treatment probably said to themselves 'It's about time'.
Most of my friends that cared about me were glad for me. I met a classmate at an AA meeting once. He smiled & said 'We've been waiting for you to get here'.

Do recovery for you, most of your peers have their own 'life' things to worry about.
Sure, I was ashamed that I couldn't hold my liquor like 'normal' people.
I was classified as dual-diagnosis. I was drinking to tamp down the panic attacks, until the alcohol stopped working (if it ever did work).

I attended a rehab for chemical dependency. On the floor above us were celebrity and VIPs that didn't get to mix with the general population. Rumor had it that there was a local senator up there. The disease of addiction knows no classes, cultures, good or bad childhoods or any other criteria. It is an equal opporunity disease. It has to be called a disease and not a moral failing to take the stigma off of it and have health insurance cover it.

It is called Alcoholics Anonymous for a reason. What you hear here & who you see here, stays here.
This is how to do it if you want anonymity. I needed an inpatient rehab.

You are not responsible for having this disease, but you are held accountable for it as it begins to cross lines.

https://wellnessretreatrecovery.com/acc ... treatment/

Best of luck to you.