Hi everyone,
I'm a 22 year old girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I'm here because I would like to know your opinions on whether you think I do have a drinking problem or I am just making a big deal out of it.
I've been drinking ever since I was 16. In the last 3-4 years it became a habit. I don't drink every day, I mostly drink whenever I get the chance and I'm not at home (I still live with my family)... on average, I drink weekly. Trouble is, when I do drink, I drink a lot. I've been having black outs, I always throw up, and I ended up in the ER once for abusing alcohol. This semester I had this habit of getting a 500ml high percentage beer on every Thursday before class on an empty stomach. Moreover I've been told I shouldn't drink because I take several medications for my mental illness.
My tolerance has decreased lately for some reason. I used to handle a lot more than I do now - but I'm not sure if this is just my impression. My hangovers last two days - and I used to never get hangovers. I can see it has been impacting my mental health, as depression, anxiety and dissociation (which are common borderline symptoms) always amplify the days following a binge drinking episode.
I don't drink for fun, but to escape real life and my emotions and maybe to sound funnier to my friends...
I always read that alcoholics are those who drink a large amount every day and I can't relate to that. So I was wondering... should I get help? Am I serious enough? Should I cut on my drinking at all?