I am on a slow path to recovery

I just went to my first group today it is every Thursday @6-7:30 pm. It runs for 4 weeks. It runs at the hospital close to where I live. So I can walk to my group. I don't give a $#%^ if I met anybody after the 4 weeks is up. I just care about my sobriety. I am not there for anybody else. I made this choice to get treatment for my alcoholism. It is is only going to get worse if I don't go for these groups. I already have stomach ulcers which are very painful. I don't even want to eat most of the time. I am losing weight due to that issue. I lost lots of friends due to my drinking. I am a lot worse then when I first became a binge drinker. That was nothing compared to now. I have become dependent on alcohol to function and to feel normal. I use to cope with boredom. I use to escape reality or any stress/triggers. I have been drinking everyday nearly for almost 2 years. And if I don't find a purpose I will only get deeper and deeper into it. I cannot cope with my boredom.