Am I am alcoholic? Should I get help? HELP?

I tend to go on "benders" where I drink everyday until I get too sick to it anymore and then I quit again. This time things have escalated a lot. I stay up until like 6 am drinking alone. I blackout as well. My grandmother is about to kick me out of her house for my drunken behavior and keeping her up all night. I drink and drive and am ashamed of it majorly. I am pretty sure the neighbors even know I drink. I make a big mess out of the driveway or anywhere I am and don't remember. If I get "cut off" I start to get really upset. I also have mood swings and can be very vile even though I am usually not. But my friend told me I am not an alcoholic. But I have only talked to her on the phone in a year. This is starting to scare me. I mean, what will happen next? This morning I woke up covered in bruises and cuts.

Imagine the situation is switched and your friend calls you and tells you she drinks everyday, drinks all night, blacks out, gets in trouble with her grandmother, drives under influence, has memory lapses, mood swings, wakes up covered in bruises and cuts... then asks you "do you think I have a problem?" What would you answer?

I relate to your post, and the waking up with cuts and bruises, it's like, what did we do last night, go sky diving?! You definitely got a problem and from what you wrote a big one. Antabus works for me, but I still have occasional relapses, but my sober to drunk time increases by allot. Please stop the driving, I am waiting to get my license back now, I excepted the suspension pretty well cause I realized all the years I got a way with it, felt like, well, it's time to pay the piper. Just glad I didn't kill someone. Take care, see you on the boards.

Hi!

It definitely it sounds like you have issue with alcohol. I do myself but sometimes I do think ah I don't I just really like to drink and if I really wanted to to I could stop I just don't want to. A person who drinks normally doesn't drink until they pass out- we do! They don't go onto these forums asking if they have a problem- we do!!