Alcohol and Psychosis

Am I the only one who is HALF-delusional AND an alcoholic?

I'm a paranoid person as it is. My problem is when I drink TOO much, I tend to react to certain situations I normally wouldn't. For instance, I know people are following me. I KNOW this. If I drink too much and see something that sets off my paranoia, then I want to retaliate. Last night I saw some guys who were in camouflage and had guns on their hip. I thought they were military, so I got angry. I tried following them (cos they were "obviously" following me), but traffic seemed to suddenly back up- like they were preventing me from following them. Keep in mind, this is a very common tactic for gang/organized stalking which the military invented. It seemed highly coincidental, so this angered me more. Honestly, it was only four or five cars that blocked me, but DAMN! Those guys got away QUICKLY! Unbelievable. No one drives that fast normally. Anyway, so I continued driving. I just so happened to turn at the right turns and so on. I don't have a clue how I managed to make the right decisions about direction while intoxicated. Those guys were sneaky AND quick. Anyway, I finally found them. I couldn't remember the vehicle very well, but I could smell them. Ya know? I knew it was them when I got behind them. How? I have NO idea. I just knew it. Then I get beside them, and I look to my left. It was them. They were staring right back at me. I pulled over in front of them to let them know "Get the ###$ behind ME, you fools."

I don't know what does it, but the military and police officers are the ones who get to me. The military really sets me off. I don't know why I react the way I do. I guess it doesn't matter. I don't want to get in trouble. I do know people are watching me. I've probably said too much online about terrorism and such.

How do I contain my emotions when I'm drinking? I could have gotten in big trouble, but I couldn't help it. They made me so angry.

Am I the only person like this?

ashc wrote:How do I contain my emotions when I'm drinking? I could have gotten in big trouble, but I couldn't help it. They made me so angry.

I know you probably won't think about this as helpful, but how about not driving while drunk? It will spare you the paranoid feeling of being followed, and also possibly save someone's life...

Oliveira wrote:

ashc wrote:How do I contain my emotions when I'm drinking? I could have gotten in big trouble, but I couldn't help it. They made me so angry.

I know you probably won't think about this as helpful, but how about not driving while drunk? It will spare you the paranoid feeling of being followed, and also possibly save someone's life...

Hmmm. Maybe that's why they're all following me! Ah hah!! Well, that just makes me more angry, and I'm sober! Makes me want to retaliate now. O o.