Acamprosate and Depression

I've been taking Acamprosate for just over a week and it's working in how it's suppose to.

The problem is it's triggering my depression. A lot. So much I'm thinking about suicide (not sure if I'm intent on doing so) but it's scaring me because I'm suppose to be recovering from BPD as well. (Self destructive behaviour is a major BPD symptom and issue for me.)

I'm scared what will happen if I end up attempting. If I come off Acamprosate I'll end up drinking again, but if I start drinking again I'll end up back at square one again. I had to address my alcoholism first because it was triggering other issues so much I wasn't treatable.

I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!