In search of people who know

Wow this is not so easy!!!! You read all the other messages and think yes I know where you are coming from and then when it comes to you- total mind blank!!!!!
I haven´t had a drink for 1month and 1wk and all is going ok, I guess the main thing is the incredible guilt I feel for all the things I have done while off my head it really brings me down to know what a horrible person I was when drinking and it´s hard not to dwell on the past. Woke up this morning really upset after a nightmare that I was back on the drink.
Just wanted to get that out and maybe talk to someone who understands these feelings.
Kia Kaha (strength within)

I find that I have to let go of my past with all of its bad decisions and bad actions. I can't change the past. But I can not deny that the past happened. I have to also own up to the consequences.

For me, my life was put on hold for a few years. I did not advance with my job or anything. I had trouble just staying alive. It was hard finding a job with the gaps in employment due to drinking. My teeth got rooten because I threw up so much then just passed out on the floor. I'm still suffering with teeth problems.

One day at a time, I have to make a new life for me.

Good Luck,
Jim S