Ok, I was a bit down yesterday and friend was letting me vent to him and one of the things I vented was something that has been bothering me for a long time.
Ok, I keep getting really nervous and even physically ill and also lose my appetite when I have to go out or see people and even when people come round. Events, really. Not all, but a lot.
I had wondered about agrophobia before but i always thought it was just a fear of the outdoors, and since I CAN go out, I ignored it. I usually do go out if I have no choice. Work, uni, that kind of thing. Though I do occasionally not go.
People think I'm anti-social, shy, a geek and stiff since I'm at uni and never go out.
I've always hated crowds, I HATE discos, clubs and that sort of thing and one of my biggest fears is no escape. I cant cope with lifts, tunnels, bridges (when I'm IN comething, car or train) or antything like that.
I've had breathing difficulties, but the thing is, all my problems are never big. I ignore them, which is why I dont know whats wrong with me. I always expect things like this to be bigger and more of a problem :/
I don't really like being noticed. I don't mind if it's a special occasion and I wear makeup but in general I don't like being seen really. I HATE people watching me.
I'm better with spontanious stuff, I love car rides. I get more freaked when I KNOW something is coming and I start to worry.
That's all I can remember/think of for now.
So, anyone got any ideas?
thanks...