Glad to be here.

I saw the Agoraphobia room here at the forums and had to step in. Ive never talked on a forum about Agoraphobia. Even though its a big part of the over all experience of my Dissociative conditions..

I have been Hospitalized for Agoraphobia.. before I was Hospitalized, somewhere in a small town, I could not get of off my bed for 7 months.. it was like a safe island for me. After the therapists got me out of my room and I came back from Hospitalization, I could not re-enter my bed room or go to sleep. I could not sleep. My mind felt that sleep was unsafe... at-least that is what I believe. So that whole thing was a nightmare. No pun on Sleep/ nightmare thing. Most of my existence on this planet is governed by agoraphobia/PTSD/Anxiety/dissociative symptoms. They all keep me at bay. My world is very small. Very few people appreciate what its like for me on a daily basis.. its like the world is one big Haunted House of unsafe. Im OK tho. I go to plenty of 12 step groups and I have a key to the church I attend to find peace and play the piano when no one is around. Ive learned to go out their. To go to the outside world and hang out. Its not easy, I take God with me. Im not in all the rooms of the mansion. Only a few. yet, I have found peace in some of those rooms.. So it has been worth it..

Hi OMNICELL,

Thanks for sharing your experiences. I'm sorry to hear about your symptoms and how they have made life difficult for you.

I think it's great that you are able to find peace in the church. I like the image of you playing the piano in an empty church - it sounds like it would be a beautiful and spiritual experience.
You sound like a brave person. I hope you keep exploring God's mansion and finding peace where you go.