i am the same way
im 17 and have been agoraphobic for 3 years on and off ... the only reason i come out is if i have an appointment wiht my therapist.
i got bullied at school too ( really bad) but i never thought it could of been a cause. i havent been diagnose with ne thing else but i have been reasearching and i thought i might have OCD and/or bipolar ( dont do wat i do tho... i used to be like that : searching for reasons why im like this or why i do things and i find disorders to make myself feel secure knowing that i know wat im dealing with but then again i might not even have that disorder)...
and again same as you i am very social... although i get mild panic attacks meeting new poeple. and when i talk with poeple its hard to stop talkign cuz when i dont talk i think and thats when a panic attack starts... so id rather be alone and keep my mind busy or be the only one talking in a conversation .. but it wouldnt really be a converstaion , more like a monologue... lol
i was hospitalized wiht a severe depression back in grade 9 ( 3 years ago) and ever since ive been on meds but havent helped much cuz i get really depressed to the point where i feel like giving up , i just feel like theres no hope...but i have alot of support comming from my dad and my boyfriend so it helps
im so happy to find out some one out there is feeling the same way i am... i hope we'll get thru it one day!
lots of love and support
lara