Everybody and Nobody

Hi everybody or should I say nobody,

I have been suffering from anxiety all my life, no need to give you the symptoms as you already know all them at heart.

I'm looking for views on my self-help therapy method of no commonality thinking:

Here is my theory of my condition, I think agarophobia starts from lack of genetic (family) support and parents given coping learning give in childhood. You act in child mode(emotionally can't control own feelings). As you have no genetic support you still have retained a childs open natural sensitive nature(holy spirit) and have not fully formed the snake(adult) in your head. As a result you form high commonality open contact with strangers in return for protection, love and support which you did not receive in growing up(genetic family). The problem with this false brotherhood(looking for true connection with strangers because of lack of genetic family) is these links do not actually exist. The bird with bread in its mouth does not give it to another bird or go to another nest to feed the chicks in it, its gives it only to this genetic family line(you are fooling yourself, strangers mean something) So, what I am trying to say is that you have no commonality with others except your own genetic kind, your workmate, your spouse, your neighbour, society is an illusion serving only the big nests of the rich lines. You can only choose your own commonality with people, talking about this and that, but you truely do not have any true commonality except with your own genetic family. As you have now been hurt by your big open large commonality circle(YOU HAVE CREATED), in turn getting hurt by one causes you to shut down to ALL because you have been open to ALL, because your commonality circle is to big and beyond your own family circle. You have to realise that your commonality is only to me and my genetic(royal) family and commonality elsewhere or bigger(altruistic) is false, just a game. Watch when things go wrong, people with real familys(small commonality) run and the large commonality people try to solve things because "they think" they are part of something called society and are responsible for others. You are independent(one) and no one has any commonality link to you except your offspring and ancestors. Your spouse, workmate, etc are strangers and have no commonality to you. My self help method is to remember the bird with bread in its mouth and to tell myself no one has no commonality to me, even if they wish it because their is no genetic link. Follow natures example. It really is a room full of strangers called society, it only existing for big families to control and get all the bread. As I write this I don't care because althought we have a commonality through "anxiety" in fact as you now know we have no link really it is just made up unless you are my close genetic family, which your are not so I do not care about you or your comments because we have no commonality. Strangers have no connection to you physically and emotionally. Have Peace.

Hi,

I read your post with much interest, and Im impressed at the way you have described Agoraphobia here. I think that you'd be interested in reading about the life of a person with Asperger's Syndrome growing up, because that life kind of matches the one that you have just decsribed: For example, I have Asperger's Syndrome and was just ignorant of absolutely everyone - family or otherwise - when growing up; and I effectively lived in my own world. However, when I actually decided to start communicating with people, I followed the same theme that you have just described here: I went out looking for my 'family' in the big bad world and just got shunned by so many people. No-one really cares about you out there.

Thaks for the insight, and take care of yourself.
Kevin