circumstantial PTSD and acrophobia

This is going to be a long story but bare with me.

this post is actually regarding sexuality , bigotry and society at large and how it has pulled me from my comfortable life into a world i have absolutely no interest in.

Basically im heterosexual but i have also watched alot of trans porn. i have discovered at the age of 33 i am on a sexual spectrum but i am not attracted to men and im very rarely attracted to trans porn . but i am aware i am on a spectrum.

the issue with all this is not one i have with myself but once i have with wider society.

because i began to learn why my daily life had so many unexplainable events of aggression from other random people .

i discovered this when i moved into a not so great area . sectarian religious fanatics terrorists infact . these people sont like gays blacks Catholics disabled just your general white supremacist ball root.

it became apparent to me i was being targeted byt i wasnt about to let anyone intimidate me. but eventually it became too much and it wasnt going to change so i moved .

it has since followed to me a degree . i have noticed this has been happening most of my adult life all these little daily micro aggressions.

since ive moved ive obviously been processing alot about myself and about society in general .
i have absolutely no respect for any of them nor do i agree with there views or opinions. and am quite happy to defend against them and vulnerable person in that situation.

ironically i am not gay. i am more attracted yo women than anyone but unfortunately ive been around alot of bigoted old women that im obviously have very little attraction to.

Anyways my life is now different but i dont plan on it stay this way. i plan to go.back to my old ways living my ######6 life without fear or intimidation. because it was only a year ago i had no awareness of this and my life was going just fine.

but now i am aware of this its becom le difficult to let go of it i am very very angry . when i first moved and i was very aware of the DAILY micro aggressions that gad been going on i did not leave the house for months with the occasional trip to.the shop which i would then experience yhe aggression on a regular basis. basically memebrrs of society are trying to keep people who they deem as memebrs of lgbrq community out of public spaces. and that is just not going to happen . because well i dont care about you or your hate and my life is my ######6 life . so yes im very very angry about this