well here it goes, I don't properly go out of the house on my own, I do go out on my own when I go to college during the week, but normally a college friend who lives nearby calls for me but if he doesn't call for me due to being ill or something I have to get the train on my own and this makes me feel sh*t scared, but I can just about manage it.
I can go out to my local town if I have a friend with me, a friend that will call for me at my house. But I never go out on my own, I have this fear that someone might attack me, I don't feel safe. I have this fear constantly when I'm out, even if I'm with friends. I feel like this is affecting my quality of life but I can't seem to talk about it with anyone. I'm not good at expressing my feeling out loud.
I'm not sure if it's agrophobia, but it has to be something like that. I guess it started as I was a kid, I've always been abit shy towards strangers but staying in all the time started when I was about 12, I'd just sit on my computer all day, playing and making computer games, making music stuff like that. But back then it wasn't down to this fear that'd i'd stay in it was because I was engrossed with computers. I also find it hard to sleep at night, often sleeping in the day instead. The only way I find to get rid of this fear is by drinking alcohol but I don't often do that.
So any comments or anything would be greatly appreciated
