I don't know if this is the right place but...

ok so i got logged out because i spent too much time writing this and lost all of it so heres what i want to say in short

this is very small compared to what thousands of other people go through im very sorry
but im very scared to go to the dentist im not even sure if that was an anxiety attack or not


when i was small i had a root canal and i cried a lot during that time and my dentist has never given me numbing gel or medicine

after that i only had small annual checkups nothing wrong but that year, i had very tiny cavities that could be filled and prevented from further tooth decay

but i dont know what came over me!
the moment she had the drill in her hand i started crying and my heart beat increased and i felt i was going to faint from all that was going on, the noise of the machine, the smell at the dentist, my mother not even glancing at me, the high pitch voice in which my dentist was talking to me in
i had a thought that id rather die and than be here and even bit her finger at a point
i told her to let me calm down it was too much i felt i was going to faint somehow my head was hurting my i started sweating and twitched whenever she tried to put the drill in my mouth

after this i refused to visit the dentist for another 2 or 3 years
here i am now, posting this because last night when i checked my teeth, at the back i saw my tooth was starting to decay, there is a black line in between my tooth and grey areas around the line
when i saw that i broke down and started crying, felt dizzy and felt like i did not have any energy
i know this sounds very immature but yes, i cried and now i have a slight fever
i was also very angry at myself for letting it happen and threw my phone at the wall

i really dont know what to, i know that it needs to be treated before another root canal but im very scared and the thought of it is making me cry everytime

Hi Mei i am Brian,

I am no doctor but it sounds to me that you have a deep phobia regarding visits to the dentist. Also it sounds like the stress of facing that phobia induced the fight or flight response built into all people, this in turn if i understand what you wrote resulted in a full blown panic attack.
If i have understood correctly i have good news for you both your dentist phobia (Odontophobia) and your panic attacks are not only controllable in the short term but completely curable in the long term.

If you urgently need to visit a dentist speak to your doctor in regards to some form of sedation for example Valium (diazepam) also speak with your dentist via phone and let them know of your condition i am sure they will do all they can to make your visit as nice as possible (people do understand and want to help).

If you have more time i would suggest counseling and CBT cognitive behavior therapy these things can usually be accessed through your doctor. Given the right treatment i am sure you will achieve change and regain control of your life and dental happiness =)

Below is a link regarding dental anxiety ( i hope its ok to post it, it is a genuine help site for this condition).
https://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/our-servic ... ntophobia/

Good luck Mei i hope you over come this challenge, im sure you will =)
B.