Still can't get a job

A bit of preface here, I've been dealing with growing social anxiety since I was 13, and now its developed into agoraphobia. Combine this with depression and non existent self esteem and you get me.

Anyways, I just turned 19 a couple months ago and my family is getting sick of me being locked up in my room all the time. They were trying to help me get a job a while ago but as of july this year I think they've given up on me, I'm completely unskilled, socially inept, and can't bring myself to give myself any sort of worth, and now its all coming crashing down on me hard. I feel like even more of a constant failure then before, honestly I've applied to every job I can find atleast twelve times by now, only ever got one interview in which I failed to seem even remotely competent since I had a panic attack during it, and can barely attend college. My life is going to shambles, I can't afford therapy on account of the no job and no insurance, only trade skills being taught around here I've proved to be a disaster with, and formal education is dropping. I want to try and get better but don't even know remotely where to start, so I'm sorry for posting here if it's a bad place, but I do need to ask for help. Anything would be helpful at this point, I'm at such a low I can't get my foot in as a janitor.

Are you an American? Lighten up dude. I remember when I was 19, things were just as dark. If I could talk to myself back then I would have said," 19 is soooo young! You can literally do whatever you want! Seriously, if you hate school right now- quit and go back later. Go work at a bowling alley, or a skating rink, or start barbacking at an awesome night club or bar where there's a party every weekend. Have fun just to have fun. Growing up sucks. You'll have the rest of your life to be miserable. Just find something you actually enjoy and try to do that before you get married, have kids, buy a house, etc. Time is on your side. If you don't want to just work a $#%^ job with cool people to drink beer with and make friends, look into a trade. Be a plumbing apprentice, find your local union. Research trades like pipe fitting, carpentry, HVAC, electric. You could join a union, work as an apprentice and make really great money Without putting up with service industry crap. Maybe talk to some people in the trades industry and see who you like and what sounds good. Try going to libraries and checking out books and try to fill your mind with things other than doubts. Basically you don't need to freak out for a good 7-8 years or so...enjoy it. It'll be gone anyway. I had so much fun once I found a "cool job". I worked my ass off because I enjoyed the people and atmosphere.

I'm sorry you have to deal with the social anxiety and agoraphobia. Before I answer your questions: Don't beat yourself up about the job rejections--that's incredibly normal for most 19-year-olds. (I'm 20 and I cannot even count the number of times I haven't gotten calls back. It's nothing personal--that's just how the world is right now). Additionally, your family doesn't sound like they understand what's going on with your mental illness; they seem insensitive if they're pushing you to do something you feel physically unable to do. I think your first priority should be on self-confidence, because I don't believe you deserve those harsh words you've said about yourself.

You may have already considered this, but have you looked into online colleges or certifications? I know there are online programs for just about everything. Something I was recently looking into was an online personal trainer certification--you take the courses online and then, once you're certified, it can be a working from home job (where your clients come over) or you can go over to their houses, but you don't need to travel much. But if that's too much for your social anxiety, how about online jobs? Or even an unpaid internship; you could try to find a company that needs articles written from home. I empathize with your struggles--it's very easy to feel like you're going nowhere and nothing will change. But I promise you, you'll find something! Just be kinder to yourself and give yourself credit for what you can do--for example, despite your extreme social anxiety and agoraphobia, you've been applying for jobs and you even went to an in-person interview! That's FANTASTIC! I know that with that sort of perseverance, things will work out for you.