Hate.

First off, I'm not 100% sure where I should be posting this, so if need be, please move it.

I'm a 17 year old school student. I'm the quiet guy at the back who like technology and computers, the one who is usually called "Geek" and "Nerd". I'm used to it. I've accepted it.

But that's not my problem. No. I have an anger problem. I'll snap at the smallest thing. I'll snap at friends, family and strangers...For no apparent reason. But this too isn't my worst problem...

I HATE everything and everyone around me. I hate my friends. I hate my family. I hate that guy walking across the street. I can't help it. Sometimes I feel so much hate it makes me feel sick in the stomach. Sometimes I feel so much hate I want to hurt someone....To kill someone...To watch them bleed and cry in pain as I laugh at their misery...

Not long ago a friend told me an ending to a game I was currently playing. I felt so much hate for him that I threw up, this can't be normal... I'm not normal for having these feelings and I don't know what to do about it.

I need help.

I need help before I do something stupid. Something I'll regret.

Dude, I can relate to you. Once, I got so angry that I threatened a member of my family with ahunting knife that I own. I got help though, and that help came through an anti-depressant. Before that though, I had to tell my mother that I needed help, and she then arranged for me to go to the doctor. So, if you want help, tell your mam that you don't feel good or are feeling depressed and that you want to talk to the doctor.

Alternatively, go to the doctor in your school (if there is one). I think that you will be surprised at how accomodating people can be if they see that you are in distress.

Kevin

hi raging raven

I am sorry to say that you should post your problem at anger management forum but there is no problem in posting here.

Try one thing Love someone with your pure desires. Because that is why only LOVE can heal everything. It is the best thing you can try at this situation of your life.

Forget the word HATE
believe that everybody is loving you.

Thnks

Hi Ravine,

I see that you have come to the Adjustment forum. These people have not replied for a long time now and I doubt that we will hear from them again. Do you have any experience - personal or otherwise - with Adjustment Disorder?

Kevin

HI chucky

I will say to you what i think at this moment if people is not writing any post here, but if they had kept email alert of their post then they will try to get solutions, otherwise it is upto them. If they are serious about their problem they will come and try to get best solutions from us. Don't you think this? And chuky another thing you believe in be selfless always. Then why are you thinking that people aren't coming here. Just i was not commenting on you was trying explain you what i think about this all.

Thnks.

Ravine wrote:If they are serious about their problem they will come and try to get best solutions from us.

No, not necessarily. Some people just come here, make one post, and that is enough for them. They never return and simply get on with their lives.

And chuky another thing you believe in be selfless always. Then why are you thinking that people aren't coming here

I don't understand what you mean by this. To be 'selfless' is to be helpful 100% of the time, without looking for rewards for doing the helpful act.

Kevin

CHUCKY

Dear friend

But i try to react with them in a different way, you can call it my own desired way.

Agree with you totally..

No prob.