There is a term known as projecting which is seeing things in other people that you don't like in yourself and I had a problem with this.
I feel so much better after accepting that there is a part of me that is like former Joint Chief of Staff Richard Myers. I won't go into the negativity of what I was seeing in him that I did not accept in myself but now I do and I feel happy.
I'm in ROTC for the Air Force as well just like he was and tomorrow I am formally being given a leadership position and I think I know who is going to be my role model.
It was honestly causing me anxiety not accepting who I was but now im happy accepting that im like him and will hopefully follow in his footsteps.