im lost

i have got to a point in my life where i dont beleive, feel, or understand anything. i feel like this world is against me and im always suspicious of myself. i get into major thoughts when im conversating with people and just nervously breakdown. i dont know whats happening to me someone please help. javascript:emoticon(':(')
Sad

Well its hard to say how to help you without knowing the specifics...however I have dealt with some horrible things also...and maybe hearing some of them might help you realize you are not alone..because that is what helps me the most....Well since i was young..my father has beaten me...when I was 14 my best friend passed away on my birthday...My brother has dissapeared and I do not know if he is alive..my long term boyfriend has decided to pretend like he doesnt even know me....my cousin in Iraq was just shot...and my second brother is very sick and is suffering from mental dissabilities which are not allowing him or for that matter...anyone else to help console me when I need them the most. I have been having a very rough time and do not understand the world...I never thought I understood anything except the love I had for my boyfriend but that is gone now too...however the one thing that I do understand that keeps me alive and kicking is that I am not the only one that feels this way...I am not alone....there are many others out there like me that want to just throw life away...but its not worth it...because in time..things WILL look up..whether you believe it or not...things will turn back up for the better...there is a plan for you and a plan for me and a reason for everything that happens...so keep your head up and try to make it through the worst..

remember what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger