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my hair pulling story

Postby thecatlady » Fri Jul 13, 2018 10:49 pm

i think this is the least self conscious i ever felt talking about this, in this forum, i don't feel as alone
I started pulling my hair when I was in 1st grade (now I'm 20) and I learned that if an eyelash falls then you make a wish and blow it away. I had a talk with my mom about this first memory a few months ago, and she told me that there's more to the story: apparently the wish I made with that first eyelash I pulled was that my father would be happy again. He was dealing with very bad depression and PTSD at the time.
Ever since then I had highs and lows. The eyelashes were a constant. Eyebrows came on a little bit later. I remember a girl in 7th grade telling me I had really nice eyebrows and that I didn't need to get them done. I was flattered, and I thought it was thanks to the hair pulling. Now, I'd rather have to do my eyebrows than have so much of them missing...
Hair started much later. Split ends. I pulled them apart. Then I got to the root (the root of the problem, ha). Is it weird that it feels almost sensual to think about the root of the hair, those really coarse parts of the hair, and pulling those out? I feel so messed up. The hair has gotten dramatically worse about a year and a half ago, yet somehow my mom talked me into discussing it with my therapist, which has helped a lot. I'm still in a bad place, but I'm currently on my second day of no pulling. I feel better.
I have a new girlfriend. My first serious girlfriend. I'm terrified of her finding out about my hair pulling. I know she won't be judgy, but I'm still so embarrassed. I've never had to do this before, never had any partner.
But I'm still hopeful. I feel like I'm nearing the end of my journey with hair pulling, and this is the final battle, it's time to beat the dragon and free the princess. Only in this case I'm both the knight and the princess.

(so self conscious about this anyways, i just realized my hands were making the way up to my hair as i was reading over this. keep on fighting!)
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Re: my hair pulling story

Postby justpostingafewtimes » Mon Sep 17, 2018 10:42 pm

I'm in my 30's and I stopped fighting my hair pulling. Yeah I mainly pull out my eyesbrows and eyelashes but also on my arms and other areas. Usually I pull the thicket looking hairs because those stand out more and usually pulls out more of the root of the hair which is satisfying. These days I just shave my head so my hair pulling looks less noticeable and I gave up trying to beat the addiction to pull hair. I think maybe stress relieving medication and a lot of distracting social interaction helps prevent hair pulling but all it takes is one stressful situation and you may sit and pull out a ton of hair within a few minutes. I don't think there is some magic cure you can only hope you do it less as you get older and get used to it. ive noticed I have my limits like I wont pull some hair out cause I think it makes me look really stupid. I wish I could do that for the rest of my hair pulling. just think it makes me look stupid if I pull and stop entirely lol.
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