I'm sure this question has been asked before but how do you know?
I mean, I'm 33 years old...a very late bloomer. I've been through substance abuse, depression, anxiety, panic attacks....and well, these days I am clean and just battle my anxiety mostly.
I've always just figured that I was gay but I love hanging out with guys. I get along better with guys, I understand and relate to guys. Or as much as I can, I guess.
I have a girlfriend and she is aware of my confusion with my gender. She totally accepts and supports me. Recently when I opened up to her about everything that I felt- this sense of relief happened, and I didn't feel as angry...
and, our sex life got a lot better because I wasn't holding back or trying to be a certain way.
I guess my question is, I mostly find myself having to mentally go there as a guy sexually in order for sex to even happen. I have packed before but at the same time, I don't do it every day.
Is it possible to maybe just imagine being a male in the bedroom? Or is this a sign of being transgender?
I mean, I'm just really confused because I feel comfortable being in boyish clothes and being the "masculine" one in the relationship...but at the same time, I'm not going to kill myself if I'm stuck in a womans body forever- its just the reality of it and sort of sucks but what can I do? I don't know. I guess I just want a clear answer. I'm 33...why the heck would this just hit me, now? Why didn't this ever come up before?